But they weren't there beneath your stare. (Entry 212)
Do you ever feel like there's a song that describes everything in your life? Or a person? Or just the feelings you have? And every line seems just so very potent, so very applicable? Well, today I'm going to be analyzing a song. No, Peter, this is not music theory. Everyone will be able to understand this kind of analysis. To my dear one:
You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night
And every moment we were so very close, and I could feel your breath, it was like a moment of unspoken beauty, one that maybe I should not have been blessed with. But the hours would pass so very quickly, despite how much I longed for them to linger on...and we laid there in the cold nights...
Then you said, "Wait for me we'll fly the wind
We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him."
But oh, now my world is at your feet
I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I've drowned
We'd have fun, and you helped me time and again to be stronger without him. To come into my own. To be able to feel alive after feeling so dead...feeling so lost...and I'd drown in your face, your eyes, your touch, and cling to you all the tighter, lest I fall to my pain. You made me feel whole again, even if by any sane way perhaps you shouldn't have been able to.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong
I was waiting for anyone to notice, to figure out the secret. To see my feelings and tell me I was wrong, that I should not care. That I couldn't care. That you couldn't.
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
Any bindings from the world outside that room
Later, you demanded my attention. Asked me to look at you, and not think of someone else. Something else. To let my heart be there, in the moment, to be fully present...
And they weren't taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn't say "no"
You took my hand and led me through places I'd never known, never fully imagined. You took care of me and led me to be stronger than I ever had been, even when I didn't think I ever could be. And then I couldn't say no, because my heart was yours.
You sighed and I was lost in you
Weeks could've past for all I knew
You were the blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say
I wouldn't say "no"
You blanketed me with happiness, smiles, the most meaningful of looks. And we were there, under that certain blanket, out in the cold of the night. And it wasn't that I couldn't say no, stop being around me, leave me alone. It was that I knew I wouldn't. I knew I never would want to. Even if I knew it'd end, I wanted every moment possible.
But they all said, "You're too young to even know,
Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him."
Maybe I am too young to know what this feeling really is. And when I lose you, or if, I know I'll be able to grow and be strong again. But God knows, that won't keep me from letting it grow. My attachment to you continues to bloom, and you know so very well... I have the hardest time containing that. I love fully and passionately, and though I've tried to teach myself to guard my heart, it's been nearly a year now, and even when at times I had some guards, they've all tired, and I can't keep you out, even if I wanted to. Because, you see:
But oh, now, my world is at your feet
I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I've drowned
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn't say "no"
Every moment feels more like this...
If you can go listen to this song, do. It's beautiful. And now you all have a glimpse into my life, my feelings, my heart. I love you guys.
You breathed infinity into my world
And time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night
And every moment we were so very close, and I could feel your breath, it was like a moment of unspoken beauty, one that maybe I should not have been blessed with. But the hours would pass so very quickly, despite how much I longed for them to linger on...and we laid there in the cold nights...
Then you said, "Wait for me we'll fly the wind
We'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him."
But oh, now my world is at your feet
I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I've drowned
We'd have fun, and you helped me time and again to be stronger without him. To come into my own. To be able to feel alive after feeling so dead...feeling so lost...and I'd drown in your face, your eyes, your touch, and cling to you all the tighter, lest I fall to my pain. You made me feel whole again, even if by any sane way perhaps you shouldn't have been able to.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong
I was waiting for anyone to notice, to figure out the secret. To see my feelings and tell me I was wrong, that I should not care. That I couldn't care. That you couldn't.
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
Any bindings from the world outside that room
Later, you demanded my attention. Asked me to look at you, and not think of someone else. Something else. To let my heart be there, in the moment, to be fully present...
And they weren't taken by the hand
And led through fields of naked land
Where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn't say "no"
You took my hand and led me through places I'd never known, never fully imagined. You took care of me and led me to be stronger than I ever had been, even when I didn't think I ever could be. And then I couldn't say no, because my heart was yours.
You sighed and I was lost in you
Weeks could've past for all I knew
You were the blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say
I wouldn't say "no"
You blanketed me with happiness, smiles, the most meaningful of looks. And we were there, under that certain blanket, out in the cold of the night. And it wasn't that I couldn't say no, stop being around me, leave me alone. It was that I knew I wouldn't. I knew I never would want to. Even if I knew it'd end, I wanted every moment possible.
But they all said, "You're too young to even know,
Just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him."
Maybe I am too young to know what this feeling really is. And when I lose you, or if, I know I'll be able to grow and be strong again. But God knows, that won't keep me from letting it grow. My attachment to you continues to bloom, and you know so very well... I have the hardest time containing that. I love fully and passionately, and though I've tried to teach myself to guard my heart, it's been nearly a year now, and even when at times I had some guards, they've all tired, and I can't keep you out, even if I wanted to. Because, you see:
But oh, now, my world is at your feet
I was lost and I was found
But I was alive and now I've drowned
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
So they can tell me I was wrong
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
But they weren't there beneath your stare
And they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
Of any bindings from the world outside that room
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
Of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away
So I couldn't say "no"
Every moment feels more like this...
If you can go listen to this song, do. It's beautiful. And now you all have a glimpse into my life, my feelings, my heart. I love you guys.