Fail
Today feels like a total waste of my time. When I reflect on how I've spent the last 5 hours of my day- the lack of progress I've made... I've been spinning, chasing my tail, in circles. It is clear that I am terribly slow at reading my textbook and producing meaningful notes from it. I've been sitting at my desk since 12 and have read very little and I feel like an idiot. I also figured out today why I procrastinate. The reason being, I resent that I am so slow at processing information and that I have give up my social life to make more time for my school work. I am bitter because there is no balance in my life, despite my on going effects. Sometimes I even think "man, I wish I was that kind of intelligent, maybe I wouldn't struggle like this..." That will never happen...
so I will resort to non-communicative means to express how I feel...
Arrrrgh!!!!!!!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!
GLAHHHHH!!!!
I'm not going to give up on myself or this major because I'm passionate and want a career in the field. It would also be a TOTAL waste of my time and money to switch to something like liberal arts after 4 years of small victories and many sacrifices.
Today I'm just discouraged, I think the room temperature, a breezy 60 degrees, is also contributing to how rotten I feel. I will get over it and keep making improvements but right now I just feel like crying.