Rambles through the past week
Arg, I thought I would use twitter, but it seems to have spammed my journal! D: Sorry about that, peoples, I didn't realise. >.< I can't even figure out how to delete the blasted entries.
It's been a nice weekend, and it's not quite over yet! Even though I have to work tomorrow, it's technically a half day. So if I can get everything finished, I am gonna be going HOME :D Huzzah for the Anzacs, I say!
I bought another few things online today, namely FFIX and BK:Grunty's Revenge. I'm tempted to buy Trauma Centre for ds, really, but when there are roms I really shouldn't. There's no need! I must resist temptation to spend. I'm already spending too much. It's kinda retail therapy though.
I started work again over the past week. I'm still bumbling around, but perhaps I'm (maybe) getting the hang of it? Slowly but surely. It's sorta secretarial, but with quite undeniable clinical aspects. I really should get a list of things to research, I should study, but I'm too busy relishing the last of my weekend.
** menstrual whining, I'd skip it if I were you **
I kinda hate feeling vulnerable, I like trying to be the strong, independent single girl. But it would just really be nice to lean on someone for once and not have to be strong by myself. I have family and friends, so I don't have anything to complain about. Just, sometimes, I'd like to have someone to love. I don't know, I feel like I'm missing out.
And then, I feel ridiculous for thinking silly things. and I want a bit of reassurance that it's normal to feel silly things like this, that I'm not the only one out there who gets lonely sometimes.
**end whine**
Need to call peoples on Tuesday re: loans. sigh~
I looked at my old crush yesterday, and I thought... God, why? Why have I been hung up over this guy? He's a good guy, but he's not good looking in the least. He'd always been good looking to me, at least till now, probably an eye of the beholder thing. Additionally, not much feeling left there. I'm glad, it's better that way.
Some guy asked me for old test papers today, and I caught myself thinking, why. Why and what exactly do I owe you? He's someone I barely talk to. But of course, I will go look for test papers. I guess I'm not that petty. But I could be, I am since I thought those thoughts, and it's a little disturbing how little it does disturb me. I'm really not at all as nice as I make out to be. As I thought I was.
Masks, that's what I am.