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man i am bored i have absolutly nothing to do and probally absolutly nothing to write down either its just thaT i am so bored i have nothin else to do except this. i should be in bed tryin to go to sleep cuz i got skool tomorrow but i really dont care about skool and more and plus i cant sleep. i am so confused. blake is stupid he says that he likes me blaH blaH blaH i cant even believe him anymore its been like 4 months almost 5 and thats messed up if you ask me. what do you think? well there is this guy holt that likes me but i am scared to start anything because i like blake so much. blake prolly thinks i am crazy and yall prolly do to but i dont care cuz i love blake i just wish he would get over his "fear" that he has. he thinks i would cheat on him like all his other girlfriends. but i dont think i could do that!!! i like him so much i mean obviously if i have been waiting almost 5 months on him. he just does not understand how much i like him. i truly dont know, all i know is i would never do anything to hurt him and i kno that i am going to go crazy if something doesnt happen soon. i want to tell him to just forget it since its so hard for him but then right when i decide to tell him that he will prolly change his mind and i would still be confused and so would he so i have no idea what the right thing to do is. i think i just want to never talk to him again so i wont have to go through this every day or every week end. but i could never go with out talking to hime so that sure as hell wont work... huh ? lol i never get to see him because he is always grounded for his grades.... that sucks tho because the only time i see him is at skool between classes. sometimes i wish i could forget about likeing him so much and just be friends with him but that is so hard i have tried that alreasddy and it didnt work. i just fell for him again! i dont know how to explain it i am so confused. i like other guys but not even near as much as i like blake!! i mean i feel like i love him but how can i love someone that i am not even with? that makes no since. i cant believe i have sat here and wrote all this. i am just typeing not even knowing what i am sayin. he wasnt at skool today but i talked to him a lil bit ago i miss him so much i just wish he wasnt so damn confusing. and i wish i could just look him in the eye and tell him exactly what i am thinking. but i dont think he would even understand it all. because i barely understand it. so how the hell am i going to get him to understand. school is almost out. i cant believe that. i will be pissed if i have wasted this whole semester likeing blake so much and then never see him over the summer. its almost 12 and i am still typing this down i cant believe that. goh i guess i need to go to bed i have skool in the morning. i dont even feel like going to skool cuz i kno blake will be there and he'll just make me sad. dont you have it when the person u miss so much is the person standing right next to you the whole time.? well thats how it feels when i am around blake. i think i love that boy. . . . well .....

**xoxo**
*I AM IN LOVE WITH DAVID BLAKE MINOR!*