papa?

[o_cornelia]

of all the things i've never asked my father
the only thing i regret right now is not
asking him how he wanted to be remembered

he was a difficult man and he was a wonderful man
if i say one thing but not the other-
if i say both but don't explain-
i like telling people about him

but

but

it all starts out okay
but then, as i go on
and tell a little of this
and some more about that
i start feeling dirty

the more i tell about one thing
the more i feel i have
to say about the other

i always stop too late
it's like i'm a little kid
with no sense of boundaries

of all the things i never asked my father
i wish i had asked him:
how do you want to be remembered?