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soooo..my heart is being stretched very thin lately. i really don't think that i deserve most of the things that have happened to me over the last 5 years, actually all of the things that have happened to me. fuck that. i didn't deserve any of them. anyways, today while looking on myspace, i found an email that mike had sent one of his friends sasha. i guess they dated before or something, anyways, it was a survey he filled out, and there was a question that said 'are you single?' and the answer was 'kind of' of course i started crying because he has my heart, and he fucking knows that. question is i don't know what to do. i don't want to deal with this, i'm too scared to be alone, i love the kid to death, why couldn't he just leave me if he wants to do shit like that. ugh, i'm not that bad of a person am i? yeah. i think sometimes it would be better if i just scraped the knife back over my skin again.
yeah, anyways what am i supposed to do? i just want things to friggin work out. my heart is tired of being broken. i didn't think it would be broke anymore after this long. wtf did i do to deserve something like this?
yeah, anyways what am i supposed to do? i just want things to friggin work out. my heart is tired of being broken. i didn't think it would be broke anymore after this long. wtf did i do to deserve something like this?