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I crawl into my mind and listen to the stupid things I say. sit down onto a comfortable not to expensive black leather chair and sink into my mind.
Incongruous pieces of hope floating around in my stomach as I run to my room. I look to the left of my bed as I see a picture of me and my. What I thought wonderful boyfriend. Im dead this feeling is hurting me so much I don’t noe what to feel. Wow I loved him this much to feel for this. To hurt to wait for that one moment . I new something was going on I could smell it. Who the fuck was he kissing anyways?. Well he was kissing. He wasn’t naked well he was on top of who ever it was.. fuck I didn’t see who it was. Now if I ask will he lie or will he tell me?
was it a mistake.. just one kiss not that big of a deal.
well it is to me. Right? I don’t noe..
wow this head rush. Im crying to much and I cant see. My eyes are red. “ leave me alone mom:” please. Please. She was just helping. Im crying.. she wants to know why. I cant tell her. She won’t care. Will she hurt with me. I need someone. … mmm mom?
ummm.. “” MOM .?? I really wanted her there. As she walked towards my door I opened out to her and she said.
Just one breath should I use to tell you this. Christian loves you. What? You don’t even know what happened. Im looking at her with this face that I could honestly see. I was so confused and sure to say something I was going to regret. She looked up and said something I will never forget.
Incongruous pieces of hope floating around in my stomach as I run to my room. I look to the left of my bed as I see a picture of me and my. What I thought wonderful boyfriend. Im dead this feeling is hurting me so much I don’t noe what to feel. Wow I loved him this much to feel for this. To hurt to wait for that one moment . I new something was going on I could smell it. Who the fuck was he kissing anyways?. Well he was kissing. He wasn’t naked well he was on top of who ever it was.. fuck I didn’t see who it was. Now if I ask will he lie or will he tell me?
was it a mistake.. just one kiss not that big of a deal.
well it is to me. Right? I don’t noe..
wow this head rush. Im crying to much and I cant see. My eyes are red. “ leave me alone mom:” please. Please. She was just helping. Im crying.. she wants to know why. I cant tell her. She won’t care. Will she hurt with me. I need someone. … mmm mom?
ummm.. “” MOM .?? I really wanted her there. As she walked towards my door I opened out to her and she said.
Just one breath should I use to tell you this. Christian loves you. What? You don’t even know what happened. Im looking at her with this face that I could honestly see. I was so confused and sure to say something I was going to regret. She looked up and said something I will never forget.