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Who in the heck do you turn to when your mistakes are killing you? I really want to tell my parents about what happened back in january...but i dont know how...they are going to be sooo dissappointed in me. I mean, i hate myself for it, so why shouldn't they? I just feel...so, so bad. I am not getting any sleep, everytime i close my eyes its there, i had at one point gotten past it, and now its there, i find myself thinking about it more and more....i dont know what to do. So i went to ask Nickole what to do, she wasn't much help...dont get me wrong, i love her to death...but she really idk...she just didnt give me the answer i was looking for, and thats ok, i asked for her opinion. so she had every right to say what she said, it is just...ugh, idk. So i've decided im going to talk to nettie, i've always been able to talk to her about anything...she was there for cana (i think) so why wouldn't she be there for me? And then i'll decide on telling my parents... I have to tell them, no matter how much i dont want to, they need to know, i hate this, i hate the lies, i dont like to lie, i am not a liar, and this is not going to turn me into one. This...is just....hard. I need someone to turn to.
But in other news, i got the cutest underwear today, and a new bra, i love them!!!!! I feel like britney spears in crossroads where shes in the hotel with henry, lol, the underwear and bra look just like that, but i need to tan, lol. so thats what im going to do this week if im alive...well i'll update more later.
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