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This whole thing is completely different. Yes, I've been in relationships, and yes, I'm pretty sure I was in love once. But this is nothing like that....I think before it was a gradual, get to know and understand each other type love...maybe more of unconditional respect and caring. This freaks me out.
How long has it been? Maybe a month and a half, two months tops, we've been talking? Only met a few weeks ago...but there's something different about him.
I've always been pretty sure I knew what I wanted in life....get a career, live on my own, maybe move out of state, not have kids...stuff like that. But now, it's like my views on some of these things are changing...not because he's changing my mind...but now I think I understand what my mom was talking about...when you meet the right one, you'll really know what you want. I always tell her, get used to pets as your grandkids...but now I'm not sure...it's like I have a sort of clarity about life in a way...like, it's ok to not want to have kids...but maybe you do want them...but only if it's with the right person. Not that kids are any sort of thing that will be happening soon...but that's a major thing for me...for my future.
He OPENED the car door for me today...not just once...no, no, like every time...I've NEVER had anyone open the car door for me. I just stood there for a minute, like waiting for him to grab something from the seat or something...I didn't know what to do. It was really nice.
I don't know who even reads this, and it doesn't matter really...but I'm sure you're reading it going "oh whatever, it's a new relationship, it'll wear off" but I've been in "new relationships" before...and it's NEVER been like this. It's almost like I didn't even get the "omg i'm so nervous, what if he thinks this, what if he thinks that" phase...I met him...we hung out...and since then, it's like i'm completely comfortable around him....which is SO not like me. I ate in front of him today....which normally takes like a month or so...and I let him drive....which uh, sometimes didn't EVER happen. Hell, I drove to my jr prom lol Little things like this are making me stop and think...like, what the hell is so different this time??
Even though I've been in a couple relationships, some good, some bad, pretty decent length, I've never had the feeling I had the other day. I was sitting at my desk at work, and looked at a text from him and this feeling washed over me and was like, this could be it...it really could. It was almost like there was a flash of something otherworldly or something (shut up, I don't know how to explain it...). I just sat there for a few seconds and was blown away. Ever since then, I think about it and wonder....It is just so weird to be that it's all happening really fast...but it doesn't scare me...and THAT freaks me out. lol
There are lots of things I could say to explain how great he is, but it doesn't even seem to do him justice. He's the nicest guy I've met, without being a complete pushover...he's smart and funny, and attractive...he loves kids...and his family...he has goals in life....I TRUST him, already..I totally and completely trust him...I could go on and on...but I don't really need to list the reasons why I really like him...maybe more...the past 2 times we've hung out, I've had the urge to say it..but its like whoa, way to freak the whole situation out. but I don't know..the feeling won't go away...I've never felt it this strong before...it's like I have to consciencely remind myself not to say it every time i open my mouth.
I don't know...the whole thing is weird and freaks me out a little, but all I know is that I can't stop thinking about him...and I missed him the second I walked out his door tonight. That's gotta mean something....
How long has it been? Maybe a month and a half, two months tops, we've been talking? Only met a few weeks ago...but there's something different about him.
I've always been pretty sure I knew what I wanted in life....get a career, live on my own, maybe move out of state, not have kids...stuff like that. But now, it's like my views on some of these things are changing...not because he's changing my mind...but now I think I understand what my mom was talking about...when you meet the right one, you'll really know what you want. I always tell her, get used to pets as your grandkids...but now I'm not sure...it's like I have a sort of clarity about life in a way...like, it's ok to not want to have kids...but maybe you do want them...but only if it's with the right person. Not that kids are any sort of thing that will be happening soon...but that's a major thing for me...for my future.
He OPENED the car door for me today...not just once...no, no, like every time...I've NEVER had anyone open the car door for me. I just stood there for a minute, like waiting for him to grab something from the seat or something...I didn't know what to do. It was really nice.
I don't know who even reads this, and it doesn't matter really...but I'm sure you're reading it going "oh whatever, it's a new relationship, it'll wear off" but I've been in "new relationships" before...and it's NEVER been like this. It's almost like I didn't even get the "omg i'm so nervous, what if he thinks this, what if he thinks that" phase...I met him...we hung out...and since then, it's like i'm completely comfortable around him....which is SO not like me. I ate in front of him today....which normally takes like a month or so...and I let him drive....which uh, sometimes didn't EVER happen. Hell, I drove to my jr prom lol Little things like this are making me stop and think...like, what the hell is so different this time??
Even though I've been in a couple relationships, some good, some bad, pretty decent length, I've never had the feeling I had the other day. I was sitting at my desk at work, and looked at a text from him and this feeling washed over me and was like, this could be it...it really could. It was almost like there was a flash of something otherworldly or something (shut up, I don't know how to explain it...). I just sat there for a few seconds and was blown away. Ever since then, I think about it and wonder....It is just so weird to be that it's all happening really fast...but it doesn't scare me...and THAT freaks me out. lol
There are lots of things I could say to explain how great he is, but it doesn't even seem to do him justice. He's the nicest guy I've met, without being a complete pushover...he's smart and funny, and attractive...he loves kids...and his family...he has goals in life....I TRUST him, already..I totally and completely trust him...I could go on and on...but I don't really need to list the reasons why I really like him...maybe more...the past 2 times we've hung out, I've had the urge to say it..but its like whoa, way to freak the whole situation out. but I don't know..the feeling won't go away...I've never felt it this strong before...it's like I have to consciencely remind myself not to say it every time i open my mouth.
I don't know...the whole thing is weird and freaks me out a little, but all I know is that I can't stop thinking about him...and I missed him the second I walked out his door tonight. That's gotta mean something....