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i know this is kind of just my first week in the real world of france, but.
frankly, i don't even feel like i'm in another country.
i don't do anything, because i have mono.
i only have class monday and tuesday.
i speak english all the time, because i live with an american.
i haven't met anyone or made any new friends since presession.
i skype with my family every day.
on the plus side.
i feel pretty much back to normal.
i have a ton of free time to travel, post-mono.
we do speak a lot of french, too, though.
hopefully in class? or something?
i'm not completely cut off from the world.
i'm not sad, weepy homesick. but i want to go home. at this point, i feel more involved there than i do here. and it's mostly because i just can't DO anything here. i'm trying to stay positive about it, but this really is the worst time i could have gotten mono. not to mention, too much is happening at home and i feel like i should be there. also, my habits haven't really changed. i can see and feel the cultural difference, but there hasn't been any reason for me to change the way i usually do things. i don't really know how to describe this one. but, like. i eat the same way, my routines are the same. i don't know.
i feel time moving fast - i'm already over a month in - and i can feel that this isn't the experience i wanted. i can almost feel the disappointment i'm going to look back on this trip with. like i didn't study abroad right or something.
i don't know, i shouldn't seal my own fate or anything, i'm just feeling dissatisfied right now.
the positive side of me can keep in mind that i still have october, november, december. and a ton of traveling to do. and i'm going to sign up for a talking partner at the french-american center (i.e. i'll be helping someone learn english and hopefully pick up some french). and hopefully i'll meet people around school, even though i'm barely there. and i'm trying to start watching french news and find french music.
i think i just need to be able to spend more time out of the apartment. soon. stupid mono.
p.s. after a good night's sleep and a delicious nectarine, i'm feeling better. and i'm breathing through my nose again. also, there's a strike today, which not only feels normal (cultural adjustment?), but means there's not much to do anyway. so.
frankly, i don't even feel like i'm in another country.
i don't do anything, because i have mono.
i only have class monday and tuesday.
i speak english all the time, because i live with an american.
i haven't met anyone or made any new friends since presession.
i skype with my family every day.
on the plus side.
i feel pretty much back to normal.
i have a ton of free time to travel, post-mono.
we do speak a lot of french, too, though.
hopefully in class? or something?
i'm not completely cut off from the world.
i'm not sad, weepy homesick. but i want to go home. at this point, i feel more involved there than i do here. and it's mostly because i just can't DO anything here. i'm trying to stay positive about it, but this really is the worst time i could have gotten mono. not to mention, too much is happening at home and i feel like i should be there. also, my habits haven't really changed. i can see and feel the cultural difference, but there hasn't been any reason for me to change the way i usually do things. i don't really know how to describe this one. but, like. i eat the same way, my routines are the same. i don't know.
i feel time moving fast - i'm already over a month in - and i can feel that this isn't the experience i wanted. i can almost feel the disappointment i'm going to look back on this trip with. like i didn't study abroad right or something.
i don't know, i shouldn't seal my own fate or anything, i'm just feeling dissatisfied right now.
the positive side of me can keep in mind that i still have october, november, december. and a ton of traveling to do. and i'm going to sign up for a talking partner at the french-american center (i.e. i'll be helping someone learn english and hopefully pick up some french). and hopefully i'll meet people around school, even though i'm barely there. and i'm trying to start watching french news and find french music.
i think i just need to be able to spend more time out of the apartment. soon. stupid mono.
p.s. after a good night's sleep and a delicious nectarine, i'm feeling better. and i'm breathing through my nose again. also, there's a strike today, which not only feels normal (cultural adjustment?), but means there's not much to do anyway. so.