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Yeah. So we broke up. And it makes me unbelieveably sad. But no matter what I say it's not going to change anything. So I'm just trying to accept it. ::sigh:: and it kills like a motherfucker. It was only two days, but none of you would just understand. He apologized. Idk if it means anything. Idk who the hell he is anymore. I want to know what I did wrong. But I know he won't tell me. He'll just leave it hanging on a thread, and inch above my reach. Whatever. I'm tired of thinking about it. Things won't ever be the same. And don't ask what happened. I don't want anymore people ivolved than there already are.
Uhm. So All of that shit happened yesterday. I slept over Lizz and we tried to have a talk with him online, and I guess something one of us said or did set him off. What it was? I still dunno. So yeah. I just wanted to sleep. And when I woke up, I felt better. But it didn't last long. Saw him at Daves but he ignored me. I wanted to say something but couldn't find myself to do anything. I was just planted on the couch with my eyes averted from his. And then I had to leave.
I went to softball practice at 3. I discover he apologized to Lizz. That's good. She shouldn't even have been caught in this. He didn't want to talk to me at all.
I got home and went online. he said sorry then, but still has chosen not to clue me in on any of his thoughts. I hate being left in the dark.
Well, yeah. I'm suppossed to be doing a project, while feeling like utter crap. I'll prolly fail. Who cares. It's not important to me anymore.