Layin here.. just contemplating...
Damn you, LJ.. I can't stay away.. my life is too interesting bwuahaa... no, it's not that.. i just.. i don't have anywhere to vent..
To clue you people in, I met a girl.. she's wonderful.. but she doesn't want a relationship (apparently because she's scared of being hurt).. I understand that.. I just can't help but like her -> there's something about her that I can't get off of my mind.. i've told her she's something special -> not to me, just something special in general.. but to me, she's amazing.. if you're reading this, Ms. Amazing, I hope you don't get mad at me.. if you do, let me know.. this entry can go *pft* down the drain..
I ran into my old friend Cynthia last night at IHOP when I took Tori (my little cousin's friend) there cuz she was hungry.. we talked for a bit.. she called me tonight, also -> she told me yesterday that she would so we could catch up.. it was nice..
Tiffany and I also talked today.. I told her I couldn't continue to wait for her.. it hurt too bad to sit around and want to be with somebody else, but to have this feeling inside that I'm still tied down to her because she won't tell me the truth -> things like that are the main reason that I wanted to disappear in the first place -> Honesty is by far the quickest way to earn my respect AND my attention.. i hate liars.. i really do..
anyway, she told me that if the girl I met made me so happy, to be with her.. and I said "I'm trying.. but it's just not going as well as I had hoped.. so now, I'm just tryin to chill with it.. if she likes me, that's coo.. if not, then i want to know.. you know how I am -> I like the black and white, cuz the gray is trouble.." she fell asleep while I was talking to her, so I woke her up, told her to go to bed, and left..
I left wondering why I put up with it.. everything, I mean.. like a rag-doll, I feel.. tossed around and neglected most of the time until I seem to be the only thing left.. like an afterthought... that's why the girl I met makes me feel special -> she actually hit me up first, and from there, around her I always felt like someone special.. I dunno.. it's hard to explain.. easy to feel though.. God she's adorable...
I gotta get some sleep.. goodnight LJ & Readers of LJ - Romeo
P.S. - Cynthia reminded me that she thought I was an angel at one point in time... THAT made me feel good.. really good.. i haven't heard anything like that since Michelle said that all guys should be like me.. *sigh* I miss the days before love came into my life.. when i was just -> me
To clue you people in, I met a girl.. she's wonderful.. but she doesn't want a relationship (apparently because she's scared of being hurt).. I understand that.. I just can't help but like her -> there's something about her that I can't get off of my mind.. i've told her she's something special -> not to me, just something special in general.. but to me, she's amazing.. if you're reading this, Ms. Amazing, I hope you don't get mad at me.. if you do, let me know.. this entry can go *pft* down the drain..
I ran into my old friend Cynthia last night at IHOP when I took Tori (my little cousin's friend) there cuz she was hungry.. we talked for a bit.. she called me tonight, also -> she told me yesterday that she would so we could catch up.. it was nice..
Tiffany and I also talked today.. I told her I couldn't continue to wait for her.. it hurt too bad to sit around and want to be with somebody else, but to have this feeling inside that I'm still tied down to her because she won't tell me the truth -> things like that are the main reason that I wanted to disappear in the first place -> Honesty is by far the quickest way to earn my respect AND my attention.. i hate liars.. i really do..
anyway, she told me that if the girl I met made me so happy, to be with her.. and I said "I'm trying.. but it's just not going as well as I had hoped.. so now, I'm just tryin to chill with it.. if she likes me, that's coo.. if not, then i want to know.. you know how I am -> I like the black and white, cuz the gray is trouble.." she fell asleep while I was talking to her, so I woke her up, told her to go to bed, and left..
I left wondering why I put up with it.. everything, I mean.. like a rag-doll, I feel.. tossed around and neglected most of the time until I seem to be the only thing left.. like an afterthought... that's why the girl I met makes me feel special -> she actually hit me up first, and from there, around her I always felt like someone special.. I dunno.. it's hard to explain.. easy to feel though.. God she's adorable...
I gotta get some sleep.. goodnight LJ & Readers of LJ - Romeo
P.S. - Cynthia reminded me that she thought I was an angel at one point in time... THAT made me feel good.. really good.. i haven't heard anything like that since Michelle said that all guys should be like me.. *sigh* I miss the days before love came into my life.. when i was just -> me