thoughts
well, i've been thinking today about a certain someone. Ever realize how thoughts are kinda like bugs? it bothers when things keep popping up in my mind, i wish that it could be like it used to when things were simple and i seriously had nothing on my mind. Now my mind buzzes about a coffeehouse goer that some of us know. Also drama today, everything is geting messed up and sam and i have to, HAD to come up withthe 500 we owe on the limo, i swear that so much went on today that i had a fuckin nervous breakdown, i came home from work and i cried, i cried for like an hour, i swear, until 8 i cried basically and i got home at 715. Mommy and Daddy felt bad for me, i felt bad that they felt bad for me. I dunno, dont ask i like being weird. Buti have had so m uch on my mind today its not even funny, i am like if anything else happens i am not going to prom because i cant handle the stress, i alreadyhave a fuckin migrane from this shit. Its gona suck if it dont go away by tomorrow. I am going to make sure i have my meds with me. But i amhoping that tomorrow goes smoothly and everyone gets here on time and suchI cant wait to be at the campground saturday with no stress and everything. Ever feel like your mind is screaming so loud the whole world can hear it? thats what i feel like right now. I cant wait to be able to get into a routine and go to Eastenders and just be able to relax for those 2 weeks without school. Graduation is very soon and i guess im excited. Not really though. My mom was trying to talk to me about it today and asked me what i want to do that day if i wanna go out to eat or just have a bar-b-q and i was just like " i dont care, i just want to graduate and get it over with" and she said "aw" i never heard her say that to me before though, it was weird. I was shaking so bad before i thought iw as gonna pass out and mommy asked if i wanted dinner but i was like if i eat i'll puke, and it wouldnt be pretty. Okay, so tomorrow it alli have to make it through, if i dont ever update again, you know i didnt make it.
~nicki~
convo:
sam: do you have any money on you?
nciki: no why?
sam: cause we have to get that THING for Julia
nicki: what thing?
sam: that THING!
nicki: Oh! THAT thing...
quote: The Past is but a memory, the future but a blur, live for the present!!
~nicki~
convo:
sam: do you have any money on you?
nciki: no why?
sam: cause we have to get that THING for Julia
nicki: what thing?
sam: that THING!
nicki: Oh! THAT thing...
quote: The Past is but a memory, the future but a blur, live for the present!!