Hey all

[o0onickio0o]

well i was thinking today and tomorrow is the last day of the third quarter in school. As a student i have grown to become a mature (well most of the time) young adult and i have grown up with those around me. Growing up for over a decade with everyone around you creates a bond, a bond that which you will never forgetbecause it holds the key toyour earliest memories. I am going away to college and knowing that i am leaving the security of this behind, the security of knowing thatwhen i walk in i am still going to hate the people i hated yesterday, i am still going to be friends with the school store crew, and all others that are approached, i am still going to avoid those i dont want to see and am still going be annoyed by the little things that people do. So being thrown out seems cruel and unfair but it is only now that i realize it is cruel because being locked in this prison we neevr got to make our choices. Our biggest choice of the day was probably which drink to buy in the cafeteria. But as a senior i am faced with many decisions, one being to move away. Some of you are faced with similar decisions and are unsure about what to do, some of you have to go on with more discrimation than others for reason beyond our control, but eevrything will turn out right. I am so scared of leaving and what will happen when i leave, i am scared of who i will become and what memories will be lost. But everyone has made a great impact on my life in one way or another and Jessica made me realize this today. My day was going horribly wrong and she called me up at my job and let me vent to her. After i finished the excruciating details her and Janelle came up to visit me. That was the highlight of my day to know that someone cared enough to come see me, someone didnt consult their schedule but they up and left right then. It was nice. They were even helping me put away the clothes that i was doing. It was nice and im kinda scared about leaving that, that it might change and everyone will forget. BUt i dont think it will happen. Anyways, im all out for tonight.
~nicki~

quote: And I am not afraid to try it on my own
I don’t care if I’m right or wrong
I’ll live my life the way I feel
No matter what I’ll keep it real you know
Time for me to do it on my own