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[o0olovestepho0o]

I've been meaning to update, but I just never get around to it. So much drama is goin on in school right now it's crazy. I'm just glad I'm not really apart of any of it. I'm just an outsider kinda gettin all the information and making my own opinions based on other people's stories. But I like it that way. People can just be so fake. And I realized that little things like people taking me off their top 8 really upsets me. I don't think i'd really care if I wasnt real tight with that person, but when we're pretty good friends and we've been through A LOT even though we don't talk as much now, I would think someone would still care enough about me to not replace me with other people. I mean myspace isnt such a big deal, i know, but it's just like a symbol for moving me out of the way and letting someone else take my spot. And I always stood up for them when people would talk about them. Even my other close friends would talk about them and I'd stand up for them. And I know i'm not the perfect friend, believe me, but I wouldnt have taken them off...just because....they're them. And I love them no matter what, even if we dont talk that much. It just kinda hurts but...what else is new with friends right? It's hard to find good ones, and I guess u just gotta find the ones u click with the best......who don't hurt u.
Something else that bothers me.....I'm stupid. I seriously have the perfect guy for me RIGHT THERE...and he's been there.....but I'm not going for it...why?? Because i'm stupid. And he's EVERYTHING I could want in a person, nothing less. And I tell myself I don't like him, but when he gets a girlfriend i'm like crushed. I dont get it. But the thing is I KNOW he feels the same way about me...girlfriend or not. i'm just...stupid. That's all. That's the only explanation. *sigh*

Maybe theres time to still make it RIGHT......

love you.<3