dance to THIS beat....biiiiitch.
Hmm. That was a weird subject. Oh well.
I figured it might be time for an update. It's been a while. But.......what do I say? Well, I guess I could start off by saying that this year is going by really fast. I can't wait to get out of high school.....move on to something better. But....I don't wanna go far. I told rach that I would come back and see her as much as I could when I leave, because she has one more year here. And Dane's been talkin bout living together and going to school together in Orlando. I dunno what I want. I can't picture not living with my parents......and a really huge part of me doesn't want to leave home because I don't want to miss out on anything. I don't want to leave my parents; I mean, their health isn't the best, and anything could happen......it's soo hard to even think about leaving with that in mind. Leaving my parents is the only thing in my way of leaving here for college. It's the only reason my mind isn't completely made up yet. UUGHHHH. Can't my parents just come with me????
That stresses me out. Can't think about it anymore. I can think aboouuuut........MY CRUSH!!! haha, I have a cruuuuushhh. And nobody knoooowwwws. Except dane..and rachel. But don't bother asking, because u DON'T know him. And that's the best part....he doesn't go to lw. yayyy. :D
I'm so glad I'm not in love. It's so good until things go so wrong. And then u have that feeling.....that feeling of emptiness...like ur missing something and it's not right. And it makes u sick to ur stomach. and ur constantly feeling sad.....u even wake up crying from ur sleep. ugh. It sucks. But I'm glad I don't have that feeling anymore.....no more emptiness. Because right now, I am complete, and I have what I want. I don't have that sad feeling.....and I certainly don't wake up crying. I liiiiiike it. But then I realize that there are so many ppl that are experiencing right now what I have already been through. and it makes me sad. BUT......I know they'll get past it. They can either work it out and be happy.....or be apart and, with time, be happy. I'm not even talkin bout anyone specific...I guess just everyone who's hurting in a relationship right now. I dunno. I know how it feels.....and I wish I could help everyone.
I dunno what else to say. Eh, I guess this is good for now. Love u guys.<3