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So I cleaned out my dazzler locker today at the girls' practice. It was a bit sad but.....if it was this time last year and I was cleaning out my locker, I would be bawling. I just lost interest in it because it felt like everything was falling apart, and there was no longer any sense for me to be on the team. I don't wanna go through another year of going to Nationals and not doing well. It hurts. When u want something soo bad and u feel like you worked soo hard for it and you did ur best....but there is always better. I am so competitive. I want to win. And it's such an amazing feeling when u actually do win.....it's something unexplainable. And I feel like I've learned so much since I first started. Like of course an enormous amount of dance was learned....but then theres the other things that just came along with being on a team. Like responsibility, respect, criticism, team work, honesty.....things that are important in everyday life. And dance wise......we know how to do crazy technique.....like things that dancers can do that have been dancing since age 3. I remember when I first made the team, I practiced sooo friggin hard because I wanted to be the best dancer I could be. I practiced at home EVERY DAY....even the summer when we had off.....I still practiced and stretched and even did our workouts like crunches, and leg lifts. And when I went back for my 2nd year...I was in a varsity level routine with awesome spots. I was kicking beside the dancers that had been on the team for 3 years and had been dancing since they were 3 and 4. And that feels good.....like knowing that everything u worked so hard for was so worth it. Knowing that ur good enough to be right up front with the best dancers on the team.....ur 2nd year. Ahhhh I love it. I miss how it used to be. But everything happens for a reason, and I believe it was my time to leave the team.
Sheeesh, sorry that was entirely too long. :)
I'm RED. Darn it this always happens. Actually, my butt is red, and my BOOBS are red
:( it hurts. The whole friggin rest of my body is tan, needless to say, I look funny right now.
I talked to Dane today after school. Met him at Sonics. Told him what I thought. He told me what he thought. Ohh boy, did he tell me what he thought. I kinda knew it.....but.... I didnt KNOW it.....ya know? Okay wait nvm, im being confusing about this. Anyway, I think we're okay now so all is well again. :)
Laterr loves.
Sheeesh, sorry that was entirely too long. :)
I'm RED. Darn it this always happens. Actually, my butt is red, and my BOOBS are red
:( it hurts. The whole friggin rest of my body is tan, needless to say, I look funny right now.
I talked to Dane today after school. Met him at Sonics. Told him what I thought. He told me what he thought. Ohh boy, did he tell me what he thought. I kinda knew it.....but.... I didnt KNOW it.....ya know? Okay wait nvm, im being confusing about this. Anyway, I think we're okay now so all is well again. :)
Laterr loves.