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Only way to stop yourself getting hurt, is to block out the world. A quote from BrokenKiss's Journal Entry. I might do that. Im screwed Otherwise.
On that point. LOVE SUX. I seem to be Giving it, and its used, and thrown away. Im not appriciated. And even the only person i believe appriated me is hard to think about when what i accomlished in a year is amillion times less as what was accomplished in a WEEK!, and that things claimed to me are being reused. Hopefully i wont be given up on. But maybe thats just me. maybe im a loser. Maybe i was put on this earth to be fucked around. Maybe i should stop bothing, stop caring, like My World has to me. How can i bother, how can i look positively, how can i look atmyself with pride if everyone around me isnt. If everyone else brings me down. if the only person who is a true friend has lost faith in me....
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going under
Don't want your hand
This time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily
Defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under
On that point. LOVE SUX. I seem to be Giving it, and its used, and thrown away. Im not appriciated. And even the only person i believe appriated me is hard to think about when what i accomlished in a year is amillion times less as what was accomplished in a WEEK!, and that things claimed to me are being reused. Hopefully i wont be given up on. But maybe thats just me. maybe im a loser. Maybe i was put on this earth to be fucked around. Maybe i should stop bothing, stop caring, like My World has to me. How can i bother, how can i look positively, how can i look atmyself with pride if everyone around me isnt. If everyone else brings me down. if the only person who is a true friend has lost faith in me....
Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming, deceiving, and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me
Going under
Don't want your hand
This time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily
Defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
So I don't know what's real and what's not
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
So go on and scream
Scream at me, I'm so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe
I can't keep going under
I'm dying again
I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under
Going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under