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im in such a blah mood...i duno why...i feel like i need 2 say something / talk/ do soemthing...like i seriously hate winter it gets me all depressed...maybe im feeling blah bc this was the 1st weekend since the end of school last year that i did ABSOLUTELY nothing...i need 2 move and be active...and i just wasnt..i think im also stressed out...ive had all the time in the world 2 study...but i just dont know how 2 sit down and do it....2morrow is the one week aniversary from the worst day ever...not really...but i hate him for that day....like i just dont understand why he would say all that..just 2 not mean a single word of it...he really seemed like a diff. person..and i didnt like it...i just chose 2 ignore it bc i had worked so hard for that day..and it all didnt seeem real...like i was just saying it 2 see how it would turn out...yeah i could see that it wasnt right but i chose 2 ignore it just 2 have one more chance...a chance that i wish i would have never taken...so maybe i wouldnt have seen the truth...and was able just 2 hold on 2 something i thought could someday Be aGain...hopefully its not the end...hopefully someday it will be all good in the hood like back when we were US.....i just want some truth out of this...amybe later when his head is clear...and hopefully he will see how much i do care for him.