some updates... nothing special
Jeremy Left for boot camp like last week... Did I tell you he was joining the air force? He's so awesome. I miss him already lol how sad am i?
I love him just as much as i love all my friends.. maybe more than some?
None the Less.. We are great friends and now he is at boot camp getting his ass kicked lol
Umm.. So listen to this and tell me if i'm lame...
I was asked to go to the melting pot for valentines day by this guy I know and I told him I wasn't sure what I was going to do and that I would get back to him and then I was asked out to dinner by another guy, not sure where all I know is he was wanted to take me out to dinner and so I told him that I would get back to him.. well in the end I called them both and told them I couldn't.. Instead I decided on v-day I'm taking my one sister out to the melting pot and then I'm taking my younger one to the Hannah Montana 3-d movie thing...
does that make me completely lame?
On other news..
Today is Feb. 5th... Friday is Feb 8th... This feb 8th makes it one whole year i've been with out my mom... Shouldn't i feel progress? I mean i do feel different.. i'm not sure if it's a good different or a bad one.. i just know i feel different... Where did the year go? It feels like it was just last month.. I could of sworn it was just last month she said she was going to be alright.. It was just last month she couldn't walk and i helped her do everything.. It was just last month i was her nurse and took care of ehr medicine.. It was just last month she was in the bed dying.. it was just last month she laid there silent like she never was alive at all.. it was just last month i was sayingmy good byes.. it was just a couple of days ago we put her in the cemetary...
you know what?
I keep saying.. one day i'll be ready to visit her grave one day i will.. someday soon... It's only been a couple of days since she died i just need a little bit of time before i can... And here it is in a blink one year later.. and i still havent gone.. i still can't go.. So hopefully one day i'll be ready.. heres to another year of self denial...
I love him just as much as i love all my friends.. maybe more than some?
None the Less.. We are great friends and now he is at boot camp getting his ass kicked lol
Umm.. So listen to this and tell me if i'm lame...
I was asked to go to the melting pot for valentines day by this guy I know and I told him I wasn't sure what I was going to do and that I would get back to him and then I was asked out to dinner by another guy, not sure where all I know is he was wanted to take me out to dinner and so I told him that I would get back to him.. well in the end I called them both and told them I couldn't.. Instead I decided on v-day I'm taking my one sister out to the melting pot and then I'm taking my younger one to the Hannah Montana 3-d movie thing...
does that make me completely lame?
On other news..
Today is Feb. 5th... Friday is Feb 8th... This feb 8th makes it one whole year i've been with out my mom... Shouldn't i feel progress? I mean i do feel different.. i'm not sure if it's a good different or a bad one.. i just know i feel different... Where did the year go? It feels like it was just last month.. I could of sworn it was just last month she said she was going to be alright.. It was just last month she couldn't walk and i helped her do everything.. It was just last month i was her nurse and took care of ehr medicine.. It was just last month she was in the bed dying.. it was just last month she laid there silent like she never was alive at all.. it was just last month i was sayingmy good byes.. it was just a couple of days ago we put her in the cemetary...
you know what?
I keep saying.. one day i'll be ready to visit her grave one day i will.. someday soon... It's only been a couple of days since she died i just need a little bit of time before i can... And here it is in a blink one year later.. and i still havent gone.. i still can't go.. So hopefully one day i'll be ready.. heres to another year of self denial...