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New Year.. same Stuff.. I was like yayy a new year new starts..
BUT
My Uncle is in the Hospital right now... Let me just say he is one of the sweetest people i have ever had the pleasure of knowing... But now he's in the hospital and they say it could be any time now... I feel So Guilty. I havent visited him once.. not once.. does that make me a coward? I dont wanna see him in that state... I worked too hard to forget a lot of things and stick them in the back of my mind where they, in my head, practically dont exist.. and i'm afraid that if i visit him it'll just bring all of that up and it will all come out of the closet in my mind and pretty much spill all over the floor.. figuratively speeking... So i guess that does make me a coward...
I'm just going to do some quizzes and get my mind off of it... oh great that for sure makes me a coward... but if i have to be a coward to keep everything in order.. then thats what i have to do, right?
08 is going to be the same... But maybe just maybe i can turn some ugly things into beautiful ones...
BUT
My Uncle is in the Hospital right now... Let me just say he is one of the sweetest people i have ever had the pleasure of knowing... But now he's in the hospital and they say it could be any time now... I feel So Guilty. I havent visited him once.. not once.. does that make me a coward? I dont wanna see him in that state... I worked too hard to forget a lot of things and stick them in the back of my mind where they, in my head, practically dont exist.. and i'm afraid that if i visit him it'll just bring all of that up and it will all come out of the closet in my mind and pretty much spill all over the floor.. figuratively speeking... So i guess that does make me a coward...
I'm just going to do some quizzes and get my mind off of it... oh great that for sure makes me a coward... but if i have to be a coward to keep everything in order.. then thats what i have to do, right?
08 is going to be the same... But maybe just maybe i can turn some ugly things into beautiful ones...