effin weird mood
not mad.... i dont know.. uneasy. probably going to be leaving the place im working at now to move to a different center... i guess the timing works... ive been unhappy lately.... i got promoted and no one really seems to like it. . . and its getting to me.. the backhanded comments... rumors... its shitty... i hate hate hate hate drama.... i feel like i cant trust the majority of people there... EVERYONE talks... annoying.... i feel like im not respected at all... i guess there are a few factors with that... im young, and a female... thats two strikes against me.... hmm... i havent been there that long...people were still getting to know me... when you move up in ranks, people that you were on the same level with automatically start talking shit about you... everyone talks about their boss behind their back... thats just common knowledge... stupid. so if i move i can start over with new people and be a tough ass bitch that commands authority.. haha.... not really but atleast i can be who i need to be without anyone thinking any different. brand new start,.... my favorite.... school is ridiculous... i just started community college.... it was probably one of the hardest things ive done in a long time ... i cried in front of so many staff members when i registered..took me two days... (the first day i didnt have all my documents and being around people was freaking me out... so i ran out crying... second day i had time constraints... forgot shit in the car... started crying lol... but eventually i pulled it togther got my stuff took the equivalency test and still made it to work on time) what a great personal accomplishment that was..... i had been a chicken shit to go back to school after my first attempt just about destroyed me 3 years ago.. side note... my class is pretty ridiculous... Salesmanship... trying to enhance my knowledge for my career... i guess in business... i dont think thats my passion... but oh well.. its gonna have to makedo since i have the opprotunity to move up the chain that way. im tired... ive been so tired lately.... i slept my weekend away.. just exhausted... i dont know if im sick or just having a rough time with my depression.... probably both... im constantly worried.. about everything... and i feel disconnected again... who knows... nothing feels like its changing.. nothing feels like its getting any better... im agitated now...