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I don't sleep anymore because I think too much.
I've had another epiphany. I am so appreciative of this break-up. For a while, I was so emo and depressed and who knew that the cure would be to make things even worse? I was so F'ed up after Adam and I broke up, I'll admit it. Honestly, I don't know how I didn't kill myself with how crazy I had driven myself. He didn't do anything to make me as crazy as I was, it was all me.
Anyway, with being so upset, I had finally had enough. I made myself just turn whatever it was getting me down into something good, kind of a "there's a reason for everything" type deal. Everytime I got all depressed about what a douchebag I thought he was, I'd make myself turn it around, look at the brightside. Needless to say, that had to happen a lot and now, I feel like such a better, brighter, more positive person. I feel like now, I can handle anything bad that gets thrown my way. I feel so different and so happy, a totally different person. I feel like I don't have to pretend to be happy, I just am.
I am really, honestly ok with everything now. Maybe this is just something to make us a better couple, maybe we weren't meant to be like I had thought this whole time. Who knows? For all we know, 10 years down the road, we could get back together but maybe we'll never talk again. Whatever happens, happens because it has to and to show us something and I'm ok with this being one of those things. I really do hope he has a great life and makes it big one day and if that includes me, great and if not, that's great too. There's someone out there for all of us and I'm only 18 (almost 19!), I really don't have to find that person anytime soon, if at all.
In short, life is too short to be sad or mad or anything that is not happy...You know, "don't worry, be happy"
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I've had another epiphany. I am so appreciative of this break-up. For a while, I was so emo and depressed and who knew that the cure would be to make things even worse? I was so F'ed up after Adam and I broke up, I'll admit it. Honestly, I don't know how I didn't kill myself with how crazy I had driven myself. He didn't do anything to make me as crazy as I was, it was all me.
Anyway, with being so upset, I had finally had enough. I made myself just turn whatever it was getting me down into something good, kind of a "there's a reason for everything" type deal. Everytime I got all depressed about what a douchebag I thought he was, I'd make myself turn it around, look at the brightside. Needless to say, that had to happen a lot and now, I feel like such a better, brighter, more positive person. I feel like now, I can handle anything bad that gets thrown my way. I feel so different and so happy, a totally different person. I feel like I don't have to pretend to be happy, I just am.
I am really, honestly ok with everything now. Maybe this is just something to make us a better couple, maybe we weren't meant to be like I had thought this whole time. Who knows? For all we know, 10 years down the road, we could get back together but maybe we'll never talk again. Whatever happens, happens because it has to and to show us something and I'm ok with this being one of those things. I really do hope he has a great life and makes it big one day and if that includes me, great and if not, that's great too. There's someone out there for all of us and I'm only 18 (almost 19!), I really don't have to find that person anytime soon, if at all.
In short, life is too short to be sad or mad or anything that is not happy...You know, "don't worry, be happy"
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