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I 'd be fine if I could control what I dream about...that'd be sweet. I am getting better though, that's for sure. I saw a picture today that said "A dream is a wish your heart makes". I'd believe that. Damn dreams.
I really do hate you...or I'd like to.
I'm in a weird mood today. I think I just want to go back to Rochester. I think I'll move back on Wednesday instead of staying here that whole week. All this livejournalling has lead me to go back to a journal of a person I'm supposed to be leaving alone...it doesn't help any, just reminds me of back then. It's sad, I shoud take him off of my friends, its too easy to find when it's right here for me to look at. I hope you had a good break without me, nice time with your family.
I don't know what I'm doing today. My sister is working later and my parents are doing non fun stuff they do. Plus, my mom is in a really bad mood and has been since yesterday. I hate it but I'm just like her: one thing goes wrong and the next few days are just totally ruined...and nothing even really went wrong. I blow things out of proportion, I worry too much. I really need to work on some things like that. I also need to work on not being a relationship person. I remember a while ago Erica and were talking about that, how we're only the happiest we can possibly be when we're in a relationship...it just makes things so much easier...when you have a boyfriend who actually wants to talk to you, you always have someone to talk to no matter what time it is, they know everything about you and you always have something to do.
I've been having a few good days and then a bad day just cycling over and over. I wish I hated you then way you hate me. It's not that they are actually bad days...I just call the days where I think about you him bad because that needs to stop. I just need to find something to do and I'll be fine.
On a happier note, next week is going to be real fun! Tuesday is a new year and I'm hanging out with Steven. I just found an old conversation I had with him online almost 3 years ago and it cheered me right up! I've missed him, I can't wait to see him. Wednesday I'm getting the keys to the sorority house and probably buying some paint as well as letting the devil dog out. Thursday I might go down there to paint my room but I might also leave that for Friday, who knows?! Ah! I love when everything just turns around and life stops pooing on you!
I really do hate you...or I'd like to.
I'm in a weird mood today. I think I just want to go back to Rochester. I think I'll move back on Wednesday instead of staying here that whole week. All this livejournalling has lead me to go back to a journal of a person I'm supposed to be leaving alone...it doesn't help any, just reminds me of back then. It's sad, I shoud take him off of my friends, its too easy to find when it's right here for me to look at. I hope you had a good break without me, nice time with your family.
I don't know what I'm doing today. My sister is working later and my parents are doing non fun stuff they do. Plus, my mom is in a really bad mood and has been since yesterday. I hate it but I'm just like her: one thing goes wrong and the next few days are just totally ruined...and nothing even really went wrong. I blow things out of proportion, I worry too much. I really need to work on some things like that. I also need to work on not being a relationship person. I remember a while ago Erica and were talking about that, how we're only the happiest we can possibly be when we're in a relationship...it just makes things so much easier...when you have a boyfriend who actually wants to talk to you, you always have someone to talk to no matter what time it is, they know everything about you and you always have something to do.
I've been having a few good days and then a bad day just cycling over and over. I wish I hated you then way you hate me. It's not that they are actually bad days...I just call the days where I think about you him bad because that needs to stop. I just need to find something to do and I'll be fine.
On a happier note, next week is going to be real fun! Tuesday is a new year and I'm hanging out with Steven. I just found an old conversation I had with him online almost 3 years ago and it cheered me right up! I've missed him, I can't wait to see him. Wednesday I'm getting the keys to the sorority house and probably buying some paint as well as letting the devil dog out. Thursday I might go down there to paint my room but I might also leave that for Friday, who knows?! Ah! I love when everything just turns around and life stops pooing on you!