Hey there teddy bear!
So i am done housesitting. But on Friday I get to start again.
I have bills up the butt. too many
dentist appt. next wednesday. and I will only have 31 teeth left in my mouth. Odd
Too much stuff is involved with growing up. Its sad. I wish i was a kid. I wish I was grown up.
I wish I wasn't stuck in this inbetween place where I feel like a child, overwhelmed and scared and have responsibilities of an adult. This blows.
but tomorrow I am going to see we are scientists. It will be nice to get lost in a crowd, in that fun happy mentality.
I still have this shadow hanging over me, I feel like I am letting everyone that I care about down. And I am told differently all the time, but that doesn't matter. Does that make sense?
no but i can't shake the dark cloud that follows me everywhere.
I went into work today to ask for May 13th off...and my boss said "no I'm not giving it to you" which he has a two week in advance ask for time off policy...and hello...three weeks. So I told him that i will call in sick if he doesn't let me have it off. I mean honestly I have asked for 2 MAYBE 3 days off since i have started working there...and that is it. I don't call in, and I don't leave early. So he can suck my balls. and when i told him I would call in...he siad I'd better be sick with a doctor's note or else I am fired. Well i have a second job now, so fuck it...he can fire me
less drama in my life
GOOD
LIKE THAT
Simple things have been giving me pleasure
cotton candy icecream
beating my dad in cribbage
watching sex adnt he city
phone calls
i feel more connected when I talk on the phone.
i dont' knwo...
everyone is gone and when I get to talk to them I feel so much closer
less like an outsider
odd...but i really am an outsider
no matter how close I am to someone
i am so
separate.
I'm not in school. I don't live alone...i don't know..
my job sucks
but i love the people.
and i am in this totally odd infatuation.
haha
boys
oh well
but i must go and pack to stay in St. Jay wth KT and watch sex and the city all night long
and read Tom Robbins all day long!!
and go to this class...with a kid who smells and sneezes without covering his mouth!!! YUCK
enjoy life. there is nothing worse than ambivilance. trust...I've done it all
I have bills up the butt. too many
dentist appt. next wednesday. and I will only have 31 teeth left in my mouth. Odd
Too much stuff is involved with growing up. Its sad. I wish i was a kid. I wish I was grown up.
I wish I wasn't stuck in this inbetween place where I feel like a child, overwhelmed and scared and have responsibilities of an adult. This blows.
but tomorrow I am going to see we are scientists. It will be nice to get lost in a crowd, in that fun happy mentality.
I still have this shadow hanging over me, I feel like I am letting everyone that I care about down. And I am told differently all the time, but that doesn't matter. Does that make sense?
no but i can't shake the dark cloud that follows me everywhere.
I went into work today to ask for May 13th off...and my boss said "no I'm not giving it to you" which he has a two week in advance ask for time off policy...and hello...three weeks. So I told him that i will call in sick if he doesn't let me have it off. I mean honestly I have asked for 2 MAYBE 3 days off since i have started working there...and that is it. I don't call in, and I don't leave early. So he can suck my balls. and when i told him I would call in...he siad I'd better be sick with a doctor's note or else I am fired. Well i have a second job now, so fuck it...he can fire me
less drama in my life
GOOD
LIKE THAT
Simple things have been giving me pleasure
cotton candy icecream
beating my dad in cribbage
watching sex adnt he city
phone calls
i feel more connected when I talk on the phone.
i dont' knwo...
everyone is gone and when I get to talk to them I feel so much closer
less like an outsider
odd...but i really am an outsider
no matter how close I am to someone
i am so
separate.
I'm not in school. I don't live alone...i don't know..
my job sucks
but i love the people.
and i am in this totally odd infatuation.
haha
boys
oh well
but i must go and pack to stay in St. Jay wth KT and watch sex and the city all night long
and read Tom Robbins all day long!!
and go to this class...with a kid who smells and sneezes without covering his mouth!!! YUCK
enjoy life. there is nothing worse than ambivilance. trust...I've done it all