the last week has been interesting
since about last friday this guy named trevor(from history class) and me have been hanging out. I'm not quite sure what triggered him to all the sudden want to hang out, and i know what you're all thinking...but no it's totally platonic. We've went out to luch twice, and hung out after school twice. It's been really nice to have someone to hang out with, and he can drive so we can actually, you know go somewhere because we have transportation, rather than begging mommy to drive us places. Last night we went to see his friends band, and they were playing in a bar, sooooo we kinda got kicked out because we weren't eighteen. Soooo that sucked, but the night wasn't altogether sucky...he's been trying to get me to drive his car, which i finally did last night. It was in a parking lot chicos so it was totally safe. But it was a stick shift soo i was a little nervous. BUt he said i did good, it was fun to drive it, but i still think that i want an automatic. Oh ya and we ate at jack-in-the-box. But it's crazy cuz me and himm can talk for hours, mostly we just drive around, with nowhere to go... sounds weird, but it's what always ends up happening. There's really nothing more to do here than there is in redding.We were out until i think 12:30 ish...am...ya cuz that's when the new days starts right...it's am i think, but ne ways it was fun. My mom is kinda letting me do whatever i want because she's so desperate for me to make friends. And finally i think i have found one. But needless to say...my bf isn't soo thrilled, although he says it's okay, i know, because he told me, that he's little jealous because "trevor gets to hang out with me for HOURs and he doesn't" He really emphasized hours in that convo for some reason. And i totally understand, because i feel that way when he talks about all the girls that are going paintballing and all the ppl that he's going to hang out with. But things are still good with me and him. We have a had a couple of very serious talks, for various reason, but all in all were good. I just think not seeing each other is getting to use. On bad news, my grandpa on my dad's side isn't doing so well. bad enough that my dad was cry, and i've never heard him cry. I'm scared for them. I hope he gets better. But the bad thing is, i have never really been close to him, and it's not really effecting me, and then i feel bad for not feeling bad. It's a vicous cycle. All in all this is just to say...im doing better.