new life
The first time you lay down and feel the heart beat without anyone around almost makes you want to cry. You know something is there and you know what you've done, but there's noone to help with the decision. Your alone when you need help and whenever you didnt need it before someone was always there.
The growling of an unknown stomach inside yours and the sudden urge to go to the bathroom three times more than before. All the things that make you beleive something could happen, but nobody knows, so nobody helps at all. You eat ten pounds of food every day and your head hurts so much you just wanna sleep constantly. You shake at the thought that something is going to go wrong no matter what you do. Your stomach aches from the developement and your always angry or sad or just not here. But, that first time you lay alone and feel the pumping heart barely keeping itself alive, all you wanna do is cry for the fact that you know what your doing to it.
The growling of an unknown stomach inside yours and the sudden urge to go to the bathroom three times more than before. All the things that make you beleive something could happen, but nobody knows, so nobody helps at all. You eat ten pounds of food every day and your head hurts so much you just wanna sleep constantly. You shake at the thought that something is going to go wrong no matter what you do. Your stomach aches from the developement and your always angry or sad or just not here. But, that first time you lay alone and feel the pumping heart barely keeping itself alive, all you wanna do is cry for the fact that you know what your doing to it.