i wish that you'd use the fact that i know EXACTLY if not more about what you're going through, to your advantage...
ps - people who tell you to get over it...tell them to get over you..i remember my friends telling me to get over it...thus, those people..arent my friends anymore...yeah its a BIG sense of knowledge that hits you hey..? it's just so disgusting that it takes THAT to happen for you to realize everything you've realized now...
but..one big word of advice...do NOT act like a drama queen about it - i know its hard..trust me, i know, this is coming from the QUEEN of drama queens...but dont act like his death only hurt you because my god..think of his PARENTS..like oh my fuck...how HORRIBLE must that be? (btw im not implying your a drama queen..but it makes people uncomfortable around you so they distance themselves from you...i duno...do what you want)
you'll never get over it...but...its been almost a year since david died, and i've learnt to cope with it you know, he still plays a big role in my life....he wasnt just my best friend..he was my family, my first love...everything...and god do i know what you're feeling..do i ever..
i also know what you mean about the "acting on impulses thing"...5 minutes before he took his life he called me...and told me he loved me...and i, being a fucking moron...felt something was wrong...but let it pass and told him i loved him too... i kick myself...everyday...jen, dont let you become me..i've been hospitalized about this...this pain...the consistency of wanting to die...do NOT become me, dont take for granted the people you have around you...dont ever...you'll regret it...and you might end up making them feel the same way curtis made you feel when he left you...
thnx a lot cid.. its nice to kno that at least one person knowz exactly how i feel.. love ya! <3.. n' yea.. im actually feelin pretty good.. n' even know i wont be able to get over nething im starting to leave it in the past.. its juss that ocassionally i have these sudden feelings where i really realy really miss him.. it really creeps me out.. thnx for everything.. im really sry bout david.. =(.. love u lots!
Yay you are my bestest bud! You know, Cid is right. She always is, if you think about it. Anyway, if you listen to her, and I mean listen, not just hear, actually listen, then I think some of the pain may subside. But the most important thing is to BE PATIENT!!! And also, know that WE are always here for you. That includes me, mmm hmmm.
awwww.. thanks u guyz.. I LOVE U JOSHUA EVANS.. i feel the warm n' fuzziness kick in.. n' i am listening to cid.. n' i mean listenin, not just hearin but actually listenin.. u both rock my socks so unbelievabley.. =).. thnx for everything!
ps - people who tell you to get over it...tell them to get over you..i remember my friends telling me to get over it...thus, those people..arent my friends anymore...yeah its a BIG sense of knowledge that hits you hey..? it's just so disgusting that it takes THAT to happen for you to realize everything you've realized now...
but..one big word of advice...do NOT act like a drama queen about it - i know its hard..trust me, i know, this is coming from the QUEEN of drama queens...but dont act like his death only hurt you because my god..think of his PARENTS..like oh my fuck...how HORRIBLE must that be? (btw im not implying your a drama queen..but it makes people uncomfortable around you so they distance themselves from you...i duno...do what you want)
you'll never get over it...but...its been almost a year since david died, and i've learnt to cope with it you know, he still plays a big role in my life....he wasnt just my best friend..he was my family, my first love...everything...and god do i know what you're feeling..do i ever..
i also know what you mean about the "acting on impulses thing"...5 minutes before he took his life he called me...and told me he loved me...and i, being a fucking moron...felt something was wrong...but let it pass and told him i loved him too... i kick myself...everyday...jen, dont let you become me..i've been hospitalized about this...this pain...the consistency of wanting to die...do NOT become me, dont take for granted the people you have around you...dont ever...you'll regret it...and you might end up making them feel the same way curtis made you feel when he left you...
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-jen
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Yay you are my bestest bud!
You know, Cid is right. She always is, if you think about it.
Anyway, if you listen to her, and I mean listen, not just hear, actually listen, then I think some of the pain may subside.
But the most important thing is to BE PATIENT!!!
And also, know that WE are always here for you.
That includes me,
mmm hmmm.
okay...
bye
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- Jen
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