I wish money had a 2 for 1 deal
Its been an extremely long time since i've posted but its better now than ever, and i just wanted a little outlet.
Im in New Zealand at the moment and with my mum being sick, i've had some time to think about things, while looking after her.
Anyways, some people might have already known but i am moving out of my cousin's house come aug 18th, that is my goal, either that or the 22nd. This is a necessary step for me since im not like my cousins and am really dependant on my family, its not like i don't like them, thats not the reason, but i really need to grow myself and be the person i need to be whatever that may be without any influences. Im telling myself this, but apart of me doesn't want to really move, albeit it a small bit but with all the financial problems i have to face going to a private school this may get tough.
Since i've already got all that stuff out there. I guess i'll continue on this subject. I don't know what my reason is but i feel less inclined to move now, than.... lets say 2-3 years ago when i was still at the UW. Maybe its because i'm close to moving and having some jitters or its the fact that i've had a year of stagnancy. What i decided though, is whatever happens, good or bad its going to be an experience something that i need.
The next thing on my mind is that.. I feel things might be different when i get back. Although different isn't necessarly that bad it might be for me. I was really enjoying myself before i left. Life was actually going good for an extended amount of time. I was hanging out with my co-workers and going on hikes and just enjoying life. I hope that will still continue when i get back.
Last thing right now is money money money. Isn't money on everyones mind? Well it wasn't for me for quite a long time. But i ran some numbers on my gmail excel spreadsheet and yowzers i better bring back some money from new zealand, because whatever i'm bringing back is going to be my cushion. I can understand why education is so expensive, but why the hell does the government limit the amount i can get a loan out (normal loans + work study + grad plus) only get me to the tuition, books and my housing. Well ill figure out what to do and not stress about it. Even if i have to live off ramen and live in a cardboard box after i graduate. I've already got a buddy that will live off with me since shes in a similar position and we have discussed about it. hehehe.
Im in New Zealand at the moment and with my mum being sick, i've had some time to think about things, while looking after her.
Anyways, some people might have already known but i am moving out of my cousin's house come aug 18th, that is my goal, either that or the 22nd. This is a necessary step for me since im not like my cousins and am really dependant on my family, its not like i don't like them, thats not the reason, but i really need to grow myself and be the person i need to be whatever that may be without any influences. Im telling myself this, but apart of me doesn't want to really move, albeit it a small bit but with all the financial problems i have to face going to a private school this may get tough.
Since i've already got all that stuff out there. I guess i'll continue on this subject. I don't know what my reason is but i feel less inclined to move now, than.... lets say 2-3 years ago when i was still at the UW. Maybe its because i'm close to moving and having some jitters or its the fact that i've had a year of stagnancy. What i decided though, is whatever happens, good or bad its going to be an experience something that i need.
The next thing on my mind is that.. I feel things might be different when i get back. Although different isn't necessarly that bad it might be for me. I was really enjoying myself before i left. Life was actually going good for an extended amount of time. I was hanging out with my co-workers and going on hikes and just enjoying life. I hope that will still continue when i get back.
Last thing right now is money money money. Isn't money on everyones mind? Well it wasn't for me for quite a long time. But i ran some numbers on my gmail excel spreadsheet and yowzers i better bring back some money from new zealand, because whatever i'm bringing back is going to be my cushion. I can understand why education is so expensive, but why the hell does the government limit the amount i can get a loan out (normal loans + work study + grad plus) only get me to the tuition, books and my housing. Well ill figure out what to do and not stress about it. Even if i have to live off ramen and live in a cardboard box after i graduate. I've already got a buddy that will live off with me since shes in a similar position and we have discussed about it. hehehe.