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In 13 days time on the 15th of this month is Steven's first birthday.
Last year on the 15th, I gave birth to two beautiful babies. That night I was woken to be told that they had taken Michael by helicoptor to another hospital and did I want to go cos an ambulance would take me there. Things were put in motion and soon Phil and I were travelling to the next city to the main hospital. Phil's parents were there already and had been spending time in the unit with Michael which I am thankful for, he wasn't alone. Soon came decision time, was the 16th by now. He was going downhill and wouldn't last so the doctor said. They had tried everything and it was now up to us as to whether we wait and see or call it quits....
I watch the amazing stories on tv that tell of parents not giving up on their children and fighting what they are told about their children. The result being something miraculous and I wonder if we made the right decision to turn off the life support and allow our son to have peace. I will never know if he would have been one of those miraculous stories. I feel sometimes that I let him down and didn't fight for him when he couldn't fight for himself.
Last year on the 15th, I gave birth to two beautiful babies. That night I was woken to be told that they had taken Michael by helicoptor to another hospital and did I want to go cos an ambulance would take me there. Things were put in motion and soon Phil and I were travelling to the next city to the main hospital. Phil's parents were there already and had been spending time in the unit with Michael which I am thankful for, he wasn't alone. Soon came decision time, was the 16th by now. He was going downhill and wouldn't last so the doctor said. They had tried everything and it was now up to us as to whether we wait and see or call it quits....
I watch the amazing stories on tv that tell of parents not giving up on their children and fighting what they are told about their children. The result being something miraculous and I wonder if we made the right decision to turn off the life support and allow our son to have peace. I will never know if he would have been one of those miraculous stories. I feel sometimes that I let him down and didn't fight for him when he couldn't fight for himself.