I have a lot of anger inside me...
I was readmitted to hospital 3 days after I got home, with a huge blood clot between my bladder and my uterus, as well as a large infection mainly on the right hand side of my lower abdomen (although it had spread all across under my belly button and to my left side), which required me to have 2 blood transfusions and surgery under general anaesthetic. I spent another 8 days in hospital... Ive been pretty sick, was apparently close to getting septecemia and had a haemoglobin level half of what it should have been :S
Trust me when I say I am never ever doing this again!!
They recon this is one of the possible complications of c-sections... but really the only reason they tried to give was that my attempt at a homebirth after a c-section, especially one where my waters had been broken for 3 days prior to labour etc etc and all the other B/S they have tried to say to me, was the cause!
They are trying to go after my midwife for not making me go to hospital earlier, they are trying to blame her for my infection because apparently she should have been psychic and picked it up even when I wasnt feeling sick prior to going into the emergency department, as well as the fact that I wasnt running a temp or showing any other signs other than the pain which I attributed to the fact that I was exhausted, the unplanned section and overdoing it with a toddler, a newborn and a house to look after....
They have concerns about the quality of my care!! I dont even know where to start with that one :@:@:@:@
No birth story, been way too sick and drugged to think straight.
Still not happy with it! All I can say is I let myself down, I panicked and freaked out and every single fear everyone else threw at me during my pregnancy was all I could see. 3 day posterior labour with my waters broken, many hours at home pushing and then freaking and going to the hospital where I was on there regulation, you are only allowed too push for 2 hours, but really we are giving you and hour and youre a naive child who needs to do what she is told schedule... I dont know what to think or what to believe, maybe I was rupturing by the time I got into surgery, fucked if I know... all I know is any thoughts of having another baby is gone and I honestly wish I hadnt even been stupid enough to think this time would have been different. I have lost 2 weeks of my childrens lives, my relationship with Amalia is pretty non existant and I dont want to do this!! My scar is fucking disgusting and I am the only person to blame this time. You know I feel bad when I dont even want to breastfeed! and I swear if one other person tells me that I have PPD and that I need to be medicated I will fucking smack them one... NOONE who has been through what I have in the last 2 weeks could get through this without feeling like shit, I dont need anymore drugs to 'save me'
Trust me when I say I am never ever doing this again!!
They recon this is one of the possible complications of c-sections... but really the only reason they tried to give was that my attempt at a homebirth after a c-section, especially one where my waters had been broken for 3 days prior to labour etc etc and all the other B/S they have tried to say to me, was the cause!
They are trying to go after my midwife for not making me go to hospital earlier, they are trying to blame her for my infection because apparently she should have been psychic and picked it up even when I wasnt feeling sick prior to going into the emergency department, as well as the fact that I wasnt running a temp or showing any other signs other than the pain which I attributed to the fact that I was exhausted, the unplanned section and overdoing it with a toddler, a newborn and a house to look after....
They have concerns about the quality of my care!! I dont even know where to start with that one :@:@:@:@
No birth story, been way too sick and drugged to think straight.
Still not happy with it! All I can say is I let myself down, I panicked and freaked out and every single fear everyone else threw at me during my pregnancy was all I could see. 3 day posterior labour with my waters broken, many hours at home pushing and then freaking and going to the hospital where I was on there regulation, you are only allowed too push for 2 hours, but really we are giving you and hour and youre a naive child who needs to do what she is told schedule... I dont know what to think or what to believe, maybe I was rupturing by the time I got into surgery, fucked if I know... all I know is any thoughts of having another baby is gone and I honestly wish I hadnt even been stupid enough to think this time would have been different. I have lost 2 weeks of my childrens lives, my relationship with Amalia is pretty non existant and I dont want to do this!! My scar is fucking disgusting and I am the only person to blame this time. You know I feel bad when I dont even want to breastfeed! and I swear if one other person tells me that I have PPD and that I need to be medicated I will fucking smack them one... NOONE who has been through what I have in the last 2 weeks could get through this without feeling like shit, I dont need anymore drugs to 'save me'