reminds me that there's a time to change

[nyy_mariano42]

I was bored so I decided to read journal entries from 2004 and 2005. i was a pretty unhappy/overdramatic person wasn't i? hahaha. oh man. but seriously...things are so different now. i've changed so much, my friends have changed so much. i'm not good friends with the same people as i was before. i talk to a couple friends from high school...but things have definitely changed a lot, for better and worse. i don't know...sometimes i wish things could be the same as they used to be with certain people, but i know that can never happen. what we had was awesome, and it's gone. which is fine. i'm not dwelling on anything, i just think it's interesting how much things have changed after thinking that it would never ever change like that...oh well. what can you do?

i have to say that i'm happiest when i'm at school. I have the best friends in the world, and Elmira is really my new home. I hate being back in Delmar. its okay for a few days and then it gets old..i hate living in the same house as my parents; i hated it for many years, and i still can't deal with it. my mom pisses me off all the time, and i just need to be away from the house. too many stupid rules and conversations for me to handle.

i just need to go back to school. i'm so happy that i have a short break. Delmar isn't home anymore. it's as simple as that.

(did i really just make a real entry?!)