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As if still being sick wasn't enough, my period started. Now, I'm not sure where my discomfort stems from any longer. Knowing how my body works, more or less, what I feel right now is probably a culmination of both. Needless to say, it is not a good feeling and that might even be an understatement. My brain and everything else is practically 99.9% shot. The most basic of everything is...well, I'm not grasping it. Today, during the bio lab, I completely forgot about the cancellation of units and ended up pondering over my math for quite some time, trying to figure out why I was getting such a small value. The quiz today - total flop. Completely forgot the name of the objective lenses was, well, "objective lens". I called it "resolution". -_- All of this I knew, and all of it I had just looked at minutes before the quiz and I just couldn't get my mind to work. During my history discussion, we were going over Plato's "The Republic" and Herodotus' "On the Customs of the Persians c.430 BCE" and every time the TA wrote something on the board, it would take me several seconds to long to process what she wrote, and more often than not, it was just a single word. I could blame it on her atrocious spelling (she spelled 'decision' wrong among many others, including 'kings') or her handwriting, but I have seen and deciphered worse. I've been saying it over and over again, but if I fail tomorrow, a large part of that F will probably be due to my less than stellar health.
Following another thought, it seems as though all my bodily systems have been, in some way, compromised. When my immune system goes down, almost everything else will go down as well. I don't know why, but my parents think it was because I was born almost underweight. I think that's the reason why I'm so short. hmph
What/How:
- tired
- uncomfortable
- pressure around eyes
- runny nose
- sore skin around nose
- slight stomach discomfort/pain
- slightly sore throat
- coughing
- hot/chilled
- drained
- unhappy
- stressed
- minor headache
- weak
~..*..~
I think things might have taken a turn for the worse. For one, my ear may be infected. Again. Dunno if "infected" is the right word. It itches, that's for sure. Kind of painful, but not to the point where I'd actually call it "pain". For lack of a better word, that is the incorrect word I shall use now. Perhaps "nuisance" is better...?
Back to what I was on about. I kind of feel like how I did when I was having my...episodes at the end of last year. The whole hyperventilation/panic attack part. I hope I don't. Hyperventilate or have a panic attack, that is. If I do, that's a surefire way to have my father forcibly drop me out of UCR and take me back home and never allow me back down here. Still, I kind of feel that same shortness of breath/inability to breathe normally. Or perhaps it's my cold that makes me feel this way? Can't really tell what's what anymore. Not that that's anything new, now that I think about it.
Following another thought, it seems as though all my bodily systems have been, in some way, compromised. When my immune system goes down, almost everything else will go down as well. I don't know why, but my parents think it was because I was born almost underweight. I think that's the reason why I'm so short. hmph
What/How:
- tired
- uncomfortable
- pressure around eyes
- runny nose
- sore skin around nose
- slight stomach discomfort/pain
- slightly sore throat
- coughing
- hot/chilled
- drained
- unhappy
- stressed
- minor headache
- weak
~..*..~
I think things might have taken a turn for the worse. For one, my ear may be infected. Again. Dunno if "infected" is the right word. It itches, that's for sure. Kind of painful, but not to the point where I'd actually call it "pain". For lack of a better word, that is the incorrect word I shall use now. Perhaps "nuisance" is better...?
Back to what I was on about. I kind of feel like how I did when I was having my...episodes at the end of last year. The whole hyperventilation/panic attack part. I hope I don't. Hyperventilate or have a panic attack, that is. If I do, that's a surefire way to have my father forcibly drop me out of UCR and take me back home and never allow me back down here. Still, I kind of feel that same shortness of breath/inability to breathe normally. Or perhaps it's my cold that makes me feel this way? Can't really tell what's what anymore. Not that that's anything new, now that I think about it.