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It sort of feels like I have some variation of morning sickness. What I want to eat doesn't want to stay down and when I feel like eating, what I want (though I often don't know what I want) isn't there. Then there is the fact that anything I consume aside from water and graham crackers makes me feel sick to my stomach and produces a strong urge to throw up. However, as I hate throwing up because it's painful, smells bad, and leaves me lightheaded with a headache, I'm stuck trying not to move for fear of inciting my stomach to force the semi-digested food into my esophagus, past my throat, and into what I hope to be the porcelain god. I'm also beginning to dislike meat more and more. I think I might become a vegetarian one of these days because meat is something I can no longer stand consuming in copious amounts. Plus the thirst! So thirsty and yet nothing to drink because water just isn't cutting it for me. Hell, I even drank a small glass of coca cola which only served to leave an unpleasant feeling and taste in my mouth and a vaguely sick feeling in my stomach. I don't like eating and my experiences for the past few weeks just makes me like eating less and less. Finally, there's the all-consuming tiredness that likes to eat me up at unusual hours. Ever since going to Canada and coming back, I get tired earlier and earlier. The first several days I could understand because it was a busy mess of unpacking, packing, and moving-in combined with waking up at 4 in the bloody morning to get to the airport in time. Then it stopped making sense. Go to bed early (10 or earlier) and wake up kind of early (9-11) was the routine for a couple of days. Then it didn't stop. Halfway through 9pm I start to feel tired. Hitting 10 and on, I feel like sleeping. Come 12 and beyond, I'm so tired to the point where all I want to do is lay down, close my eyes, and shut down. Throughout the day I feel all sorts of tiredness amongst other things. Frustrating, really.
Oh, and, here's my new policy: don't ask questions. They are neither wanted nor appreciated. Have a good day, fellow scum. haha I amuse myself still...
Oh, and, here's my new policy: don't ask questions. They are neither wanted nor appreciated. Have a good day, fellow scum. haha I amuse myself still...