You will be missed
Bob left yesterday. He's the closest person I've been with since Kev. Pathetic but true. Now I'm lost again. No one to hang out with, I'm spending most of my time in my room. Al isn't sociable and Jason isn't ever here nor do I ever hang with him. Sucks. I'm living alone again.
Furthermore, I've had my final row with my mother. The bitch had the nerve to yell at me for asking her to buy a $10 ratchet for removing the battery from the Ford [which she picked out and placed under her name, against my wishes]. Treating me like a jackass ever since she arrived, she acted as if I was being free with her money. Yes -- the same person who registered a car if her name that I'M paying for against my wishes saying she wouldn't get a loan if I was on the agreement; despite my willingness to pay $2500 down on a $4000 car. That same person who got a ridiculous deal on said car -- in a bad way. Same person who doesn't want me to get a job in another city 30 minutes away because it's "dangerous" [the only place to get a job!!!]. The same person who refuses to setup a automatic pay into my account for $100 per month so I have to ask her each week for $20 bucks -- for EVERYTHING I NEED THAT WEEK!! I take out gas, food, personal supplies from that 20 bucks a week. You know how hard it is to live off of 20 bucks a week?! VERY difficult. I make money where I can to supplement it.
Damn it! I'm a full-time student paying for tuition, fees, books, housing, most of my food, and a FUCKING POS CAR!! And she acts as if she "supports" me. RIgggghhhhttttt! *rolls eyes*
So today, I told the bitch off. It's over. She's out of my life. Sure, eventually she'll call and I'll arrange to get the key threw at the bitch and use her for a month until I get a job in the next town and then I'm cutting her out of my life. I didn't need her my first two years of college. I never visited nor called. SHE was the one wanting contact. Look where it's led me. Oh it's too dangerous to drive back and forth from there... jobless. I'll help you with food... no food [really, only Ramen and turkey burgers, no bread either]. Blah blah! Fuck you bitch I'm taking my life back. Life wrecker. I should have known not to get involved with her, just look at her other son. He LIVES with her. At least when he was in Florida, he had a chance. Idiot.
So I've realised I have no close friends on campus or anywhere now. So unless I engineer a real miracle I'm stuck here for 2 more years. So I'm going to get help with studying. Yeah, I know, whatever. They don't teach gifted students how to study. Bastards. As king procrastinator I can' bring myself to gain the study skills on my own. That leaves me with the choice of switching to a totally bs major like political sci or history where I can continue to be lax and not study and make As and Bs or I can visit the learning center or student center for success and get a study skills shot and get As.
I totally get As when I bring myself to study yet I don't it often so I end up with Bs and very few As. I have 4 Cs [ever..] and now have my first F. That scares me. I don't do Fs. Yet organic chemistry is all about memorisation and application. And the two have very little to do with each other. So... in order to get good grades in Chemistry and math I must study. Currently they account for 3 of the 4 Cs I have and my only F [the another C is from a bitch in the writing dept who gave it only because of attendence. I deserved a fucking A yet recieved a C because of tardies. Bitch said I didn't take her class seriously... who takes a CREATIVE WRITING course seriously??? You do all your work outside of class!] So I'm thinking, study skills injection, I'll give it a go.
Furthermore, I've had my final row with my mother. The bitch had the nerve to yell at me for asking her to buy a $10 ratchet for removing the battery from the Ford [which she picked out and placed under her name, against my wishes]. Treating me like a jackass ever since she arrived, she acted as if I was being free with her money. Yes -- the same person who registered a car if her name that I'M paying for against my wishes saying she wouldn't get a loan if I was on the agreement; despite my willingness to pay $2500 down on a $4000 car. That same person who got a ridiculous deal on said car -- in a bad way. Same person who doesn't want me to get a job in another city 30 minutes away because it's "dangerous" [the only place to get a job!!!]. The same person who refuses to setup a automatic pay into my account for $100 per month so I have to ask her each week for $20 bucks -- for EVERYTHING I NEED THAT WEEK!! I take out gas, food, personal supplies from that 20 bucks a week. You know how hard it is to live off of 20 bucks a week?! VERY difficult. I make money where I can to supplement it.
Damn it! I'm a full-time student paying for tuition, fees, books, housing, most of my food, and a FUCKING POS CAR!! And she acts as if she "supports" me. RIgggghhhhttttt! *rolls eyes*
So today, I told the bitch off. It's over. She's out of my life. Sure, eventually she'll call and I'll arrange to get the key threw at the bitch and use her for a month until I get a job in the next town and then I'm cutting her out of my life. I didn't need her my first two years of college. I never visited nor called. SHE was the one wanting contact. Look where it's led me. Oh it's too dangerous to drive back and forth from there... jobless. I'll help you with food... no food [really, only Ramen and turkey burgers, no bread either]. Blah blah! Fuck you bitch I'm taking my life back. Life wrecker. I should have known not to get involved with her, just look at her other son. He LIVES with her. At least when he was in Florida, he had a chance. Idiot.
So I've realised I have no close friends on campus or anywhere now. So unless I engineer a real miracle I'm stuck here for 2 more years. So I'm going to get help with studying. Yeah, I know, whatever. They don't teach gifted students how to study. Bastards. As king procrastinator I can' bring myself to gain the study skills on my own. That leaves me with the choice of switching to a totally bs major like political sci or history where I can continue to be lax and not study and make As and Bs or I can visit the learning center or student center for success and get a study skills shot and get As.
I totally get As when I bring myself to study yet I don't it often so I end up with Bs and very few As. I have 4 Cs [ever..] and now have my first F. That scares me. I don't do Fs. Yet organic chemistry is all about memorisation and application. And the two have very little to do with each other. So... in order to get good grades in Chemistry and math I must study. Currently they account for 3 of the 4 Cs I have and my only F [the another C is from a bitch in the writing dept who gave it only because of attendence. I deserved a fucking A yet recieved a C because of tardies. Bitch said I didn't take her class seriously... who takes a CREATIVE WRITING course seriously??? You do all your work outside of class!] So I'm thinking, study skills injection, I'll give it a go.