Thursday Morning "Goodbye letter"
Xavier -
I Know that I should do this in person, that I owe you that, but I do not think I could do this while seeing your face. I am so lost and confused and dont really know where to begining in this. I need to leave for a little while...I need to think about everything that has happened in this city and well...outside of it too I guess. I have so much that I need to figure out and I dont think that I can be around you or anyone else until I get some of this figured out. Im just so worried that I am going to end up being your...your weak spot you know? I dont want you to hurt because of me anymore, It hurts me too much.
I know you will be ok Xavier, your far stronger then I am...so much better then I could ever be. I want to come back...I want to be able to be around you without fearing so many things. I think...that this is probably what is best for me you know? Maybe this is what Ive always needed was to just be somewhere where I am forced to deal with what has happened to me and face it and I hope to get over it...please know that I dont blame you for anything Xavier. Everything that has happened I know was just...maybe bad timing? My fate? I dont know love...I just dont know. Please understand....gods please understand why I am doing this....please do not be mad at me Xavier...I think this is needed for both of us...maybe we both need time to think? I want you...to know that Im really what you want ok? I will understand if Im not Xavier, I will ok?
I will always love you and if you ever need me...you know we are always linked my love...Ill never close you out completly from me...I care for you far too much...I just hope that after this you still care for me too...
Love,
Vivien Anu
I Know that I should do this in person, that I owe you that, but I do not think I could do this while seeing your face. I am so lost and confused and dont really know where to begining in this. I need to leave for a little while...I need to think about everything that has happened in this city and well...outside of it too I guess. I have so much that I need to figure out and I dont think that I can be around you or anyone else until I get some of this figured out. Im just so worried that I am going to end up being your...your weak spot you know? I dont want you to hurt because of me anymore, It hurts me too much.
I know you will be ok Xavier, your far stronger then I am...so much better then I could ever be. I want to come back...I want to be able to be around you without fearing so many things. I think...that this is probably what is best for me you know? Maybe this is what Ive always needed was to just be somewhere where I am forced to deal with what has happened to me and face it and I hope to get over it...please know that I dont blame you for anything Xavier. Everything that has happened I know was just...maybe bad timing? My fate? I dont know love...I just dont know. Please understand....gods please understand why I am doing this....please do not be mad at me Xavier...I think this is needed for both of us...maybe we both need time to think? I want you...to know that Im really what you want ok? I will understand if Im not Xavier, I will ok?
I will always love you and if you ever need me...you know we are always linked my love...Ill never close you out completly from me...I care for you far too much...I just hope that after this you still care for me too...
Love,
Vivien Anu