You're right, I don't have a damn clue what you went through in junior high. Most of that is because I knew you for about six months of that time, and really, anyone at the school before I disappeared off the earth to more or less everyone until.. I think, the tail end of 10th grade. The far tail end. But you know.. that isn't so much the point.
You don't have the corner of any market of being screwed over. I'll give you that you got some serious shit, more than most people, in at least some ways. There were a lot of other people that got shit too, myself included. I'm not going to even remotely say I had it as bad as you. The worst I had happen in my presence, was I got a thing of milk dumped on me for wearing a hat at lunch by.. Skyler Decker, was it? Does that person even exist? I'm almost certain I had more gossip going around about me than I'll ever know. I've heard a bunch of different things over the years about me doing drugs, or selling them, and getting expelled from the school, or ending up dead. Still don't have a fucking clue, and still don't care. Now, this isn't to show in any way that I have it worse with the school bit. I highly doubt I did. Maybe if I was terribly concerned with my relationships with these people, or ever actually paid attention (and cared) about what people thought and said, I'd consider it a closer ranking. As it was, yeah, it sounds like you got bloody fucked. I have to say, I'm really sorry I didn't know about this and didn't try to do something about it then. Probably wouldn't have done shit, but it's the sort of thing I'd have wanted to do. Not that I'd beat someone senseless over it. It would end up, more than likely, with me being kicked the shit out of in lieu of you.
My real point, however, is that there are other ways that people can be seriously fucked over, and I wouldn't much hesitate to throw the sort of things people have done and said to me as easily equal, or surpassing what happened to you. If I carried the slightest intent of malice toward those folks, I might not be so critical. (As a side-note, if I am coming off critical as is.. that's not the intent. I understand where you're coming from, just don't agree with it.)
Honestly. If I was anyone else, I'd encourage you to use my example as some sort of ideal. As is, as much as I like to joke about what a great and god-like person I am, I'm not going to go there. It usually doesn't come off as intended. If you want to try this, though.. I'm not trying to talk about myself from a personal standpoint. Not at all. It's just a passing reference, much as it would be to anyone else, only the anyone else.. well.. is me.
All of the people that have screwed me over.. I'm pretty much on an open friendship term with. Either we've made up and are on speaking terms again, or I'm willing to be friends or pick up again whenever they are. I'm not looking to be hurt, but I can understand why they did what they did. I don't have to agree with it, like it, or approve of it, but I can understand it. I can fairly well see why they might do something of the sort, and I'm not about to hold someone's weaknesses or fears against them.
If you ever want, I'll seriously delve into this, so you aren't just taking me at my word. And, should that be the case, I'd really rather it was in person and face to face.
If you're seriously better than they are, maybe you should actually.. you know.. live up to it. Not just in refraining from seriously hurting them, but throughout.
You don't have the corner of any market of being screwed over. I'll give you that you got some serious shit, more than most people, in at least some ways. There were a lot of other people that got shit too, myself included. I'm not going to even remotely say I had it as bad as you. The worst I had happen in my presence, was I got a thing of milk dumped on me for wearing a hat at lunch by.. Skyler Decker, was it? Does that person even exist? I'm almost certain I had more gossip going around about me than I'll ever know. I've heard a bunch of different things over the years about me doing drugs, or selling them, and getting expelled from the school, or ending up dead. Still don't have a fucking clue, and still don't care. Now, this isn't to show in any way that I have it worse with the school bit. I highly doubt I did. Maybe if I was terribly concerned with my relationships with these people, or ever actually paid attention (and cared) about what people thought and said, I'd consider it a closer ranking. As it was, yeah, it sounds like you got bloody fucked. I have to say, I'm really sorry I didn't know about this and didn't try to do something about it then. Probably wouldn't have done shit, but it's the sort of thing I'd have wanted to do. Not that I'd beat someone senseless over it. It would end up, more than likely, with me being kicked the shit out of in lieu of you.
My real point, however, is that there are other ways that people can be seriously fucked over, and I wouldn't much hesitate to throw the sort of things people have done and said to me as easily equal, or surpassing what happened to you. If I carried the slightest intent of malice toward those folks, I might not be so critical. (As a side-note, if I am coming off critical as is.. that's not the intent. I understand where you're coming from, just don't agree with it.)
Honestly. If I was anyone else, I'd encourage you to use my example as some sort of ideal. As is, as much as I like to joke about what a great and god-like person I am, I'm not going to go there. It usually doesn't come off as intended. If you want to try this, though.. I'm not trying to talk about myself from a personal standpoint. Not at all. It's just a passing reference, much as it would be to anyone else, only the anyone else.. well.. is me.
All of the people that have screwed me over.. I'm pretty much on an open friendship term with. Either we've made up and are on speaking terms again, or I'm willing to be friends or pick up again whenever they are. I'm not looking to be hurt, but I can understand why they did what they did. I don't have to agree with it, like it, or approve of it, but I can understand it. I can fairly well see why they might do something of the sort, and I'm not about to hold someone's weaknesses or fears against them.
If you ever want, I'll seriously delve into this, so you aren't just taking me at my word. And, should that be the case, I'd really rather it was in person and face to face.
If you're seriously better than they are, maybe you should actually.. you know.. live up to it. Not just in refraining from seriously hurting them, but throughout.
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