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[nytequeen]

Have you had someone that you loved so much and thought they would always be by your side? Then one day you wake up and their gone knowing that you will never get to have them anymore? Never even get to hear their voice again. And won't even get to expeirence their touch. You told this person everything because they were the one you felt comfortable telling, but then their gone and you feel so alone and so scared that you will always feel like this. Afraid you will never find someone that you can tell your most deepest thoughts to anymore. And the longer you feel this way the sorrow and depression turns into anger and it builds up so much that you just start to cry. You feel better for a while then you start to think about it and it just builds to anger from sorrow again. After this happens you are never your self again. You try to make things look like they are ok and you're over it because no one understands but deep down you really arent over it. You have friends that you can talk to but they never seem to understand and the ones that do just isnt the same as telling your boyfriend or girlfriend. And even if you only knew the person a few days or weeks or months, they had such a big impact on your life that it will change you forever and you dont know how to deal with the change after they are gone. You would have a bad day but you could always look forward to their call. Then one day when you need that person to talk to, they wont be there........

"I cry because I know I dont have him anymore. I cry because I think of how pathetic I am. And I cry because I think I'll be crying forever"