End of Careless Wants: A Season 3 Castle/Beckett Ficmix
This is a Castle/Beckett ficmix that I put together to show the evolution of their relationship throughout season 3. Fic and cover by me, songs by respective artists, and a huge thank you to i_am_girlfriday for the beta.
I am currently spoiler free for season 4 and I would greatly appreciate it if people would not mention anything from the upcoming season in comments, even from promos and trailers.
I had a lot of fun putting this together and I hope people enjoy!
001. Heart in Chains - Kate Voegele
Oh because you know me well
Like a child knows a mother's face
Oh and I don't have to tell you, you've got my heart
You've got my heart in chains
Tears on my pillowcase yeah, yeah
I don't want it any other way
When Rick doesn’t return first thing in the fall it hits Kate harder than she ever would have imagined. The summer without him was bad enough, but when he doesn’t show after he promised-it does something to her.
No matter what occurred, no matter what did or didn’t happen between them, they were always supposed to end up back in each other’s life. Sometimes she thought they were meant to just be friends, sometimes she hoped they were meant for more. Either way they were supposed to be together. It was the unspoken rule that lay between them.
~*~*~
002. Birds of a Feather - The Civil Wars
She's the sea I'm sinkin' in
He's the ink under my skin
Sometimes I can't tell where I am
Where I leave off and he begins
Then suddenly he’s back-back in town, at the precinct, working with her-back in her life. It’s scary how easy it is for them to slip back into old habits. Rick has become such an integral part of Kate’s very existence that she feels relief at the shift. It’s like when the last puzzle piece slips so easily into place to complete the picture-a realization that puts butterflies in her stomach and terror in her heart.
~*~*~
003. On and On Again - Azure Ray
I counted thirty seven signs
It's probably just my mind
What it likes to do
Were they out there
Were they out there
And if I could give this a shot
Could you a safe to place our trust into
Rick has always mulled over the possibility of being with Kate. It hadn’t started out as a serious consideration, more of a ‘what if,' however, the more time he spends with her the more that changes. Since his return from the Hamptons he keeps seeing signs that they are meant to be something more. She might not believe in fate, but he does. If he could muster the courage to give this thing between them a chance, he wonders if she would too.
~*~*~
004. You Said Something - PJ Harvey
Lean against railings
Describing the colours
And the smells of our homelands
Acting like lovers
Kate begins to notice that, more often than not, after a case wraps they’ll do something to celebrate. Sometimes it’s just grabbing a burger, other times it’s Rick dragging her across town to show her the perfect view of the New York skyline from the roof of an abandoned industrial building. At these times it’s just the two of them, entirely alone. It feels more intimate than it ought to, and yet she relishes those moments more than she would ever care to admit.
~*~*~
005. Overboard - Ingrid Michaelson
I could write my name by the age of three
and I don't need anyone to cut my meat for me
I'm a big girl now, see my big girl shoes
It'll take more than just a breeze to make me
Fall over, fall over, fall overboard, overboard
Fall overboard just so you can catch me
She’s never been one of those women to completely lose her mind over a man. She’s too independent and self-sufficient for that. Kate doesn’t so much fall in love, as enter into a relationship she thinks could give her what she wants. With her it’s more of a logical approach than an emotional one. That’s not to say she doesn’t have feelings when it comes to her relationships, they just tend to be secondary. Except with Rick-with him she feels herself on the verge of falling every single day.
~*~*~
006. My Favorite… Love - Maria Taylor
And solitude's sounds are making my eyes weep
And tossing and turning I can't make my mind sleep
And getting worked up from people I just meet
And this is the reason, I think
It's the ending of
Careless wants
But you are my favorite... love
Rick goes through a period where he feels too restless for his own skin. It’s after things with Gina have ended, but that’s not the cause. Yes, he is lonely, but he doesn't miss his ex. He knows there is only one woman he wants to fill that empty place in his heart. Subconsciously he’s known for a long time that it would come down to this, down to her.
~*~*~
007. Too Afraid To Love You - The Black Keys
And the city blocks
They drive me wild
They're never ending
Mile after mile
I just don't know what to do
I'm too afraid to love you
Kate can feel the atmosphere between them shift. There’s a distinct edge of seriousness that wasn’t there before. She tries to ignore it, but with every day it becomes clearer that it’s not just a figment of her imagination. Things between them intensify-looks are more meaningful, the slightest of touches become more electrifying, and the subtext in their conversations reaches a whole new level. She would be elated if it wasn’t for the fear that knotted her gut. She begins to think she might be too afraid for this to go any further.
~*~*~
008. Your Biggest Mistake - Ellie Goulding
It's a shame you don't know
What you're running from
Would your bones have to break
And your lights turn off
Would it take the end of time
To hear your heart's false start?
He curses himself for losing his temper, but he curses her more. Rick can't even begin to imagine the pain she is experiencing, dealing with the aftermath of her mother’s death so many years later. But can’t she see that if she dies, if Lockwood gets to her, it’ll destroy the lives of all those who love her-his more than anyone's.
Kate’s the one to bring it up, the unspoken between them, but then she backs away unwilling to finish what she started. He isn’t scared though. It’s time this was said, time for the bullshit to end. Things happen, signs appear and yet they never talk about them. They ignore, and ignore until it’s like it never happened in the first place. He’s done ignoring it. He loves this woman and he isn’t going to let her go.
Then she tells him that they are over, her voice filled with so much certainty. Rick wonders what the hell it will take for her to see that she’s making the biggest mistake of her life.
~*~*~
009. Clear The Area - Imogen Heap
You find your way back down
And I'll keep the area clear...please clear the area
When you find your way back down...in one piece
Then I'll just be waiting here...right here
It’s the most emotional case they’ve ever worked, but eventually the pain and stress begin to subside. As it does, Rick regrets their fight more and more. He hadn’t lied-he’d meant every word of what he told her-but that wasn’t the way it should have been said. There was a right way to approach these types of conversations and he’d chosen the path farthest from it.
He loves her-he knows that with certainty, but he will wait to tell her. It will take time for the aftermath of the case to recede and for things to return to a semi-normal state. But when it does, and when he thinks she’s ready to hear it, he will tell her that he loves her. Whether that time is a day from now, or a year, Rick will wait. He’s not going anywhere.
~*~*~
010. Scars - Anna Nalick
I'm not going home without you
I'll save your life
Not going home without you
I'll make this right,
and wait all night if that's what it takes
The hours since the shooting have been a blur. He hasn’t left her side except when physically forced to by the orderlies at the hospital. The second Kate is wheeled out of the O.R., Rick is there, holding onto her hand for dear life. He tries desperately not to think of how pale and fragile she looks laying amongst the stark white sheets of the hospital bed. She’s Katherine Beckett, the strongest woman he knows, and she’s going to be alright…she has to be.
He sits vigil beside her bedside for two straight days and nights. Rick is determined that he will bring her out of this through his own force of will if nothing else. He refuses to lose her-it isn’t an option.
“Come on Kate, come back to me.” He whispers to her over and over. “I love you.”
~*~*~
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I am currently spoiler free for season 4 and I would greatly appreciate it if people would not mention anything from the upcoming season in comments, even from promos and trailers.
I had a lot of fun putting this together and I hope people enjoy!
001. Heart in Chains - Kate Voegele
Oh because you know me well
Like a child knows a mother's face
Oh and I don't have to tell you, you've got my heart
You've got my heart in chains
Tears on my pillowcase yeah, yeah
I don't want it any other way
When Rick doesn’t return first thing in the fall it hits Kate harder than she ever would have imagined. The summer without him was bad enough, but when he doesn’t show after he promised-it does something to her.
No matter what occurred, no matter what did or didn’t happen between them, they were always supposed to end up back in each other’s life. Sometimes she thought they were meant to just be friends, sometimes she hoped they were meant for more. Either way they were supposed to be together. It was the unspoken rule that lay between them.
~*~*~
002. Birds of a Feather - The Civil Wars
She's the sea I'm sinkin' in
He's the ink under my skin
Sometimes I can't tell where I am
Where I leave off and he begins
Then suddenly he’s back-back in town, at the precinct, working with her-back in her life. It’s scary how easy it is for them to slip back into old habits. Rick has become such an integral part of Kate’s very existence that she feels relief at the shift. It’s like when the last puzzle piece slips so easily into place to complete the picture-a realization that puts butterflies in her stomach and terror in her heart.
~*~*~
003. On and On Again - Azure Ray
I counted thirty seven signs
It's probably just my mind
What it likes to do
Were they out there
Were they out there
And if I could give this a shot
Could you a safe to place our trust into
Rick has always mulled over the possibility of being with Kate. It hadn’t started out as a serious consideration, more of a ‘what if,' however, the more time he spends with her the more that changes. Since his return from the Hamptons he keeps seeing signs that they are meant to be something more. She might not believe in fate, but he does. If he could muster the courage to give this thing between them a chance, he wonders if she would too.
~*~*~
004. You Said Something - PJ Harvey
Lean against railings
Describing the colours
And the smells of our homelands
Acting like lovers
Kate begins to notice that, more often than not, after a case wraps they’ll do something to celebrate. Sometimes it’s just grabbing a burger, other times it’s Rick dragging her across town to show her the perfect view of the New York skyline from the roof of an abandoned industrial building. At these times it’s just the two of them, entirely alone. It feels more intimate than it ought to, and yet she relishes those moments more than she would ever care to admit.
~*~*~
005. Overboard - Ingrid Michaelson
I could write my name by the age of three
and I don't need anyone to cut my meat for me
I'm a big girl now, see my big girl shoes
It'll take more than just a breeze to make me
Fall over, fall over, fall overboard, overboard
Fall overboard just so you can catch me
She’s never been one of those women to completely lose her mind over a man. She’s too independent and self-sufficient for that. Kate doesn’t so much fall in love, as enter into a relationship she thinks could give her what she wants. With her it’s more of a logical approach than an emotional one. That’s not to say she doesn’t have feelings when it comes to her relationships, they just tend to be secondary. Except with Rick-with him she feels herself on the verge of falling every single day.
~*~*~
006. My Favorite… Love - Maria Taylor
And solitude's sounds are making my eyes weep
And tossing and turning I can't make my mind sleep
And getting worked up from people I just meet
And this is the reason, I think
It's the ending of
Careless wants
But you are my favorite... love
Rick goes through a period where he feels too restless for his own skin. It’s after things with Gina have ended, but that’s not the cause. Yes, he is lonely, but he doesn't miss his ex. He knows there is only one woman he wants to fill that empty place in his heart. Subconsciously he’s known for a long time that it would come down to this, down to her.
~*~*~
007. Too Afraid To Love You - The Black Keys
And the city blocks
They drive me wild
They're never ending
Mile after mile
I just don't know what to do
I'm too afraid to love you
Kate can feel the atmosphere between them shift. There’s a distinct edge of seriousness that wasn’t there before. She tries to ignore it, but with every day it becomes clearer that it’s not just a figment of her imagination. Things between them intensify-looks are more meaningful, the slightest of touches become more electrifying, and the subtext in their conversations reaches a whole new level. She would be elated if it wasn’t for the fear that knotted her gut. She begins to think she might be too afraid for this to go any further.
~*~*~
008. Your Biggest Mistake - Ellie Goulding
It's a shame you don't know
What you're running from
Would your bones have to break
And your lights turn off
Would it take the end of time
To hear your heart's false start?
He curses himself for losing his temper, but he curses her more. Rick can't even begin to imagine the pain she is experiencing, dealing with the aftermath of her mother’s death so many years later. But can’t she see that if she dies, if Lockwood gets to her, it’ll destroy the lives of all those who love her-his more than anyone's.
Kate’s the one to bring it up, the unspoken between them, but then she backs away unwilling to finish what she started. He isn’t scared though. It’s time this was said, time for the bullshit to end. Things happen, signs appear and yet they never talk about them. They ignore, and ignore until it’s like it never happened in the first place. He’s done ignoring it. He loves this woman and he isn’t going to let her go.
Then she tells him that they are over, her voice filled with so much certainty. Rick wonders what the hell it will take for her to see that she’s making the biggest mistake of her life.
~*~*~
009. Clear The Area - Imogen Heap
You find your way back down
And I'll keep the area clear...please clear the area
When you find your way back down...in one piece
Then I'll just be waiting here...right here
It’s the most emotional case they’ve ever worked, but eventually the pain and stress begin to subside. As it does, Rick regrets their fight more and more. He hadn’t lied-he’d meant every word of what he told her-but that wasn’t the way it should have been said. There was a right way to approach these types of conversations and he’d chosen the path farthest from it.
He loves her-he knows that with certainty, but he will wait to tell her. It will take time for the aftermath of the case to recede and for things to return to a semi-normal state. But when it does, and when he thinks she’s ready to hear it, he will tell her that he loves her. Whether that time is a day from now, or a year, Rick will wait. He’s not going anywhere.
~*~*~
010. Scars - Anna Nalick
I'm not going home without you
I'll save your life
Not going home without you
I'll make this right,
and wait all night if that's what it takes
The hours since the shooting have been a blur. He hasn’t left her side except when physically forced to by the orderlies at the hospital. The second Kate is wheeled out of the O.R., Rick is there, holding onto her hand for dear life. He tries desperately not to think of how pale and fragile she looks laying amongst the stark white sheets of the hospital bed. She’s Katherine Beckett, the strongest woman he knows, and she’s going to be alright…she has to be.
He sits vigil beside her bedside for two straight days and nights. Rick is determined that he will bring her out of this through his own force of will if nothing else. He refuses to lose her-it isn’t an option.
“Come on Kate, come back to me.” He whispers to her over and over. “I love you.”
~*~*~
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