Oct 05, 2004 18:55
I even wore a Cardinals shirt today to support the team. It was a really good game. I'm glad I saw what I could of it. My teacher for Foundations even let us out 30 min early because he had tickets for the game. Great Stuff!
Over all today was pretty good. I stayed up late last night to finish some papers. Finished with everything around 1:30 am. Went to bed. Woke up this morning around 7:15, took a shower, ate breakfast and headed to class. At class I finished my homework for Thursday. I probably will look over it again though, because we will have to show them in front of the class. Fun, fun. I'm really unsure of how we're supposed to present it. Oh well, I'm sure I'm not alone with that thought.
I'm finding that I really love school here. I love the campus. I love how friendly everybody is. I love the location. I love the music department. Classes are a little odd for me at the moment. I think I'm still adjusting to the change from KC. Things require a little bit more effort so far, but that was to be expected. Actually I'm surprised to find that I've done pretty well on everything I've turned in so far, at least the stuff I have grades back for. I haven't taken any tests yet though and midterms are getting close, so I guess I'll really find out better from that. I'm not really looking forward to midterms. These midterms will pretty much be over all of the chapters that we have been covering in class so far this semester. In other words, I will be studying over quite a bit of material.
I've been really trying to feel good about myself lately. It seems like I just can't get over being self-conscious. I shouldn't be so worried about what people think of me, but for some reason I can't help it. I've been worried most about music. That is where most of my worries lie. I just feel so inadequate sometimes. People even keep trying to make me feel better by telling me that I'm good. I don't know why I can't get it through my head that I can play the damn instrument. I just have to think that I can first. When I am not thinking about it, I do so much better. Worrying fixes nothing.
I've also been really weird about politics lately. I normally just say that I don't claim a party and that I just want to vote for the person who I feel is right for our country, but lately it's become so personal. Everybody's out for blood, or at least the Republicans I know are. They just seem to get hostile when a person says that they don't like Bush. I just don't understand how they can back the man so firmly. But then again, I don't really idolize people like that. I'm not going to say that I hate Bush or Republicans because that isn't true. Everybody has their own opinions of what they think will work. I just don't believe that Bush is right for this country. I think that he had his opportunity, and unfortunately I have seen a lot more negatives than positives over the past several years. I'm sorry for posting about politics. It's just been something that's been bothering me a lot lately.
Well, I have to observe tomorrow, so I should probably go.