changes...

[nyquiljunkie]

It's been a long time since I've posted on this thing... and one would think I would continue in that fashion... but sometimes it's nice to just come back for a word or two....

life is a lot different than it use to be... i went back through my old entries... the old memories... and its weird to see the changes from then to now.... not all of it is good... not all of it is something i want to remember... but none the less they're there.... and now... the new ones i make... are just the same...

you think you know.... that everything is so sure and right... and just when you can actually be comfortable... the other shoe drops... and you see everything....

Li's walked back into my life... not in a good way... and not willingly.... I actually had to call mall security the other night to get him to leave my job... stalking is illigal in all 50 states buddy.... hopefully after sunday he'll leave me alone...

I have to find another place to live... i think I'm just going to get another apt in the place i'm at now... live by myself... and maybe that'll be best... iono...

right now i'm just here.... world is swirling around... and i'm just watching....

"i'm stuck in this circle...
going 'round and 'round...
knowing there is no future...

i gave up my everything...
for a small chance of nothing...
walked away from my comfort...
for something unsure...."

my writers block is back... my muse and inspiration just isn't here right now...

time will tell...