Paradisa App
NAME: Ena
JOURNAL: enabeans
EMAIL: dickingyard@gmail.com
AIM: luthienabler
WIKI NAME: Prof_ryoki
CHARACTERS: Tamaki Suoh, Aziraphale, Pinkie Pie
CHARACTER NAME: Lilith Sahl
FANDOM: Trinity Blood
CANON: Just before going to the peace talks with Cain, before her death.
LINK TO PREVIOUS APPLICATION: Here!
PARADISA HISTORY: The best way to describe the effects Paradisa had on Lilith, would be to tackle them from two different angles: the castle itself, and the people she knew there.
The Castle:
Having arrived during a world change plot (to L.A.), Lilith was immediately introduced to the fluidity of the world she now inhabited. It was quite a shock to her system, as it's quite hard to deny any magical involvement of a place that can change its surroundings at will. Not coming from a world where magic exists (in fact, such a great stock is placed on technology there), this was something that she found quite hard to come to terms with.
As time passed and other events and losses occurred, she began to see Paradisa as an almost living incarnation of the philosophy she preaches - that in order to have light, one must have dark as well to throw it into sharp relief. That's not to say she ever welcomed the horrors that could sometimes happen, and she always felt sorrow for anyone hurt by them. But she used their existence to help her treasure the good things that happened, and enjoy them more fully for the gifts that they were.
She only went through very few personal losses in her time in the castle, and none were particularly detrimental. For example, she spent some time as a tiger, and the only impact this served was as a reminder that the castle was capable of great feats with little effort. It was the castle-wide losses as a whole that had the deepest impact on her, the most notable of which was definitely the Berserk plot. It was during the night when demonic characters/characters with demonic traits lost control, and for the first time she was left under the thrall of 04 (the strain of Crusnik inside her). She seriously injured a very dear friend of hers during this loss of control and, even though she didn't outwardly show it much, it shook her to the core. She has always had a very strong personality and sense of her own moral compass, which nobody has ever been able to turn her from (for example in canon, even the love she held for her family, didn't stop her fighting against them in the war because she believed it was the right thing to do). So for the castle to so easily take that control away from her, and make her act in a manner completely against her beliefs and morals, is something that has instilled her with a wariness of the place as a whole. In practical terms of how this has affected her, it's mostly made her cut back on bacillus intake. She isn't starving the nanomachines by any means, as she believes that's just as dangerous for other reasons, but she is keeping them weaker than she would back home to make her easier to overpower should it ever become necessary again.
The People
It's the people that made the greatest impact on Lilith during her stay in the castle previously. While she has always held a great love for all of humanity, she has not had many relationships that haven't been on a professional level outside of her immediate family. It's a blessing she is truly thankful for and one of the reasons she was grateful to be in Paradisa, and this is shown most noticeably in three examples.
The first of these is Puddleglum, who became such a close friend that he was the one to give her away at her wedding. She had never met anyone quite like him before; he was a good-hearted man, but entirely pessimistic. She started by simply trying to lighten his view on life, but ended by seeing that he actually did see the best in things, complaining was just what got him through the day. He was important for being the first real friend she made outside of her immediate family; he was someone she felt she could rely on, and someone she ended up caring for as deeply as if he had been a friend for life.
Secondly, is Nanako. Lilith has always been a maternal person, she helped raise and nurture Abel, Cain and Seth, but this was an entirely different situation. The little girl was not an advanced clone, nor battling odds against scientists and experimentation... she was just an ordinary child in need of a loving guide. It took a little while to win over her trust, but the two of them built a relationship that fostered deep bonds and familial ties. By the time she left Paradisa, Lilith truly thought of Nanako as her own daughter.
Finally, but most importantly, is Abel. While this is a canon relationship, the nature of their interaction in Paradisa was worlds away from the man she would recognise as Abel, due to their different canon points. In seeing him as he is in this place, she was able to see the realisation of the man she had always believed in. His good heart, his love of humans, and finally overcoming his temper... these were the reasons she gave up her life, to open his eyes, and to see that her efforts had been successful is something she is so grateful for. She has always loved him, but in Paradisa, their love was finally allowed to blossom and grow without the backdrop of a war or persecution, finally culminating in them exchanging marriage vows to become husband and wife. The journey she went on with Abel during her time in the castle, is one that has given her a deep seated peace and contentment, as well as a validation for her actions back home.
Overall, while the experiences that Lilith had in the castle were highly important to her in many ways, especially regarding the relationships made, as a person she has not changed that much. She has always been very strong in herself, in who she is, and much of what happened only served to strengthen that. She remains in love with humanity, a person with strong morals, and someone who has the ability to do what she believes is right, whatever the consequences of that might be.
WHAT THEY ORIGINALLY LOST: Her rosary.
SECOND LOSS: Memories of Elissa. Elissa was Lilith's best friend and one of her main supports during the war.
INTENT: Lilith was unique among the characters I played for her ideals and serene personality, I really miss playing that. I also think she will balance out my current cast of idiot comedic failures.
NOTE: Previously Lilith was played in the journal lovingguide. This time, I'd like to play her using nyochhavar as long as that's okay.
JOURNAL: enabeans
EMAIL: dickingyard@gmail.com
AIM: luthienabler
WIKI NAME: Prof_ryoki
CHARACTERS: Tamaki Suoh, Aziraphale, Pinkie Pie
CHARACTER NAME: Lilith Sahl
FANDOM: Trinity Blood
CANON: Just before going to the peace talks with Cain, before her death.
LINK TO PREVIOUS APPLICATION: Here!
PARADISA HISTORY: The best way to describe the effects Paradisa had on Lilith, would be to tackle them from two different angles: the castle itself, and the people she knew there.
The Castle:
Having arrived during a world change plot (to L.A.), Lilith was immediately introduced to the fluidity of the world she now inhabited. It was quite a shock to her system, as it's quite hard to deny any magical involvement of a place that can change its surroundings at will. Not coming from a world where magic exists (in fact, such a great stock is placed on technology there), this was something that she found quite hard to come to terms with.
As time passed and other events and losses occurred, she began to see Paradisa as an almost living incarnation of the philosophy she preaches - that in order to have light, one must have dark as well to throw it into sharp relief. That's not to say she ever welcomed the horrors that could sometimes happen, and she always felt sorrow for anyone hurt by them. But she used their existence to help her treasure the good things that happened, and enjoy them more fully for the gifts that they were.
She only went through very few personal losses in her time in the castle, and none were particularly detrimental. For example, she spent some time as a tiger, and the only impact this served was as a reminder that the castle was capable of great feats with little effort. It was the castle-wide losses as a whole that had the deepest impact on her, the most notable of which was definitely the Berserk plot. It was during the night when demonic characters/characters with demonic traits lost control, and for the first time she was left under the thrall of 04 (the strain of Crusnik inside her). She seriously injured a very dear friend of hers during this loss of control and, even though she didn't outwardly show it much, it shook her to the core. She has always had a very strong personality and sense of her own moral compass, which nobody has ever been able to turn her from (for example in canon, even the love she held for her family, didn't stop her fighting against them in the war because she believed it was the right thing to do). So for the castle to so easily take that control away from her, and make her act in a manner completely against her beliefs and morals, is something that has instilled her with a wariness of the place as a whole. In practical terms of how this has affected her, it's mostly made her cut back on bacillus intake. She isn't starving the nanomachines by any means, as she believes that's just as dangerous for other reasons, but she is keeping them weaker than she would back home to make her easier to overpower should it ever become necessary again.
The People
It's the people that made the greatest impact on Lilith during her stay in the castle previously. While she has always held a great love for all of humanity, she has not had many relationships that haven't been on a professional level outside of her immediate family. It's a blessing she is truly thankful for and one of the reasons she was grateful to be in Paradisa, and this is shown most noticeably in three examples.
The first of these is Puddleglum, who became such a close friend that he was the one to give her away at her wedding. She had never met anyone quite like him before; he was a good-hearted man, but entirely pessimistic. She started by simply trying to lighten his view on life, but ended by seeing that he actually did see the best in things, complaining was just what got him through the day. He was important for being the first real friend she made outside of her immediate family; he was someone she felt she could rely on, and someone she ended up caring for as deeply as if he had been a friend for life.
Secondly, is Nanako. Lilith has always been a maternal person, she helped raise and nurture Abel, Cain and Seth, but this was an entirely different situation. The little girl was not an advanced clone, nor battling odds against scientists and experimentation... she was just an ordinary child in need of a loving guide. It took a little while to win over her trust, but the two of them built a relationship that fostered deep bonds and familial ties. By the time she left Paradisa, Lilith truly thought of Nanako as her own daughter.
Finally, but most importantly, is Abel. While this is a canon relationship, the nature of their interaction in Paradisa was worlds away from the man she would recognise as Abel, due to their different canon points. In seeing him as he is in this place, she was able to see the realisation of the man she had always believed in. His good heart, his love of humans, and finally overcoming his temper... these were the reasons she gave up her life, to open his eyes, and to see that her efforts had been successful is something she is so grateful for. She has always loved him, but in Paradisa, their love was finally allowed to blossom and grow without the backdrop of a war or persecution, finally culminating in them exchanging marriage vows to become husband and wife. The journey she went on with Abel during her time in the castle, is one that has given her a deep seated peace and contentment, as well as a validation for her actions back home.
Overall, while the experiences that Lilith had in the castle were highly important to her in many ways, especially regarding the relationships made, as a person she has not changed that much. She has always been very strong in herself, in who she is, and much of what happened only served to strengthen that. She remains in love with humanity, a person with strong morals, and someone who has the ability to do what she believes is right, whatever the consequences of that might be.
WHAT THEY ORIGINALLY LOST: Her rosary.
SECOND LOSS: Memories of Elissa. Elissa was Lilith's best friend and one of her main supports during the war.
INTENT: Lilith was unique among the characters I played for her ideals and serene personality, I really miss playing that. I also think she will balance out my current cast of idiot comedic failures.
NOTE: Previously Lilith was played in the journal lovingguide. This time, I'd like to play her using nyochhavar as long as that's okay.