Man that standeth firm upon the ground shalt never be eaten by worm...
So after a year and a half of this relationship, a real issue has finally come I've questioned her honesty. There are ways about her only i know, and although at face value, the situation in question makes her look very very dishonest. Also, the way things went between us for a bit after that, as in her attitude towards me. The shown part. Now, this threw me off balance a bit, and I had to go through all the emotions I could for three entire days. And then the answer came to me.
All the scatterings of information aside, I have knowns. No, WE have knowns. Shit like this that we've already discussed is a petty thing, something we gave up in order to admit our love. Nothing warrants me to start going so far as to judge that which i have incomplete info. This is a speed bump that I will not allow to happen. I promised her this exactly. You'd literally have to tell me directly that I have no value to you anymore for me to doubt anything you told me, especially if this was built on agreement and trust and most importantly, love. And still, a decision is required for closure. The only hinderance i have is time. Let's not forget this involves more than just me. So I must wait until the time comes when all are present, and receive the entirety of this, and remain balanced above all. It's what i guess you can say I owe to her, as part of living up to my honesty. Shit, since I'm honest, and that's what I gain my strength from in order to share myself with those I love, why the hell should I stop now? I shouldn't, because she's worth more than that.
Until next time, cats.
All the scatterings of information aside, I have knowns. No, WE have knowns. Shit like this that we've already discussed is a petty thing, something we gave up in order to admit our love. Nothing warrants me to start going so far as to judge that which i have incomplete info. This is a speed bump that I will not allow to happen. I promised her this exactly. You'd literally have to tell me directly that I have no value to you anymore for me to doubt anything you told me, especially if this was built on agreement and trust and most importantly, love. And still, a decision is required for closure. The only hinderance i have is time. Let's not forget this involves more than just me. So I must wait until the time comes when all are present, and receive the entirety of this, and remain balanced above all. It's what i guess you can say I owe to her, as part of living up to my honesty. Shit, since I'm honest, and that's what I gain my strength from in order to share myself with those I love, why the hell should I stop now? I shouldn't, because she's worth more than that.
Until next time, cats.