Jun 23, 2005 00:10
So these past few days have been fun. Drinking, partying, car show, etc. Now tomorrow I have to return to the hospital. Yay? At least I'm getting money to pay for school.
Jeff highlighted my hair, and I must say, he did a really good job. I was out in the sun all day too, so I'm pretty burnt.
In the last few days, I've realized a lot about myself. I want a relationship that is serious. I don't mean marriage style, but a descent man I can introduce to my parents. A guy who isn't afraid to be himself and will let me be myself. I don't want someone who acts like a father. I'm almost 19 years old, and I want a drama free relationship. I know it sounds weird, but I think that's why I'm attracted to older guys. I'm done with it.
I look in the mirror, and I realize a lot. I'm built bigger than other girls. Yes, I have my love handles and tummy fat. I've come a long way in losing weight, and I'm not going to keep my expectations in the clouds. Accept me for who I am or don't accept me at all. I think I'm beautiful, so if you don't, I really don't care.
Thank you :)