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tash = bored
so tash decided to do the LJ thing
its been some time since i have explained/put any rambles in here!
so here it goes...
my birthday is soon (april 3rd) im stressing alot about this day coming!
im dreading it actually
im sorta screwed once my 21st birthday comes.. (april 3rd) as well i will be off of my moms health insurance.. and diabetes is a bitch and shit.. its going to cost me lots of money to live! ah
well theres options i have for what i can do, to survive. some are just complicated for me to understand at the moment. hopefully i understand more of it soontime!
ah
i've been hit on by the same sex lately! its hot. but im straight. i very much so opened! but i know im straight. and like whoaness its a compliment and a half to have hot females wanting me! and not giving up on me! i dont even know what i want, actually.. i dont even want a boyfriend at the moment heh.. life is confusing sometimes. dont ya think?
been getting back into my old scene.. partying alot "partying hardcore" as in raves and drugs! meh.. i love to dance.. dancing was my past time back in the day! you dont even know. tash has the moves! haha thats forsure..and i fuckin love jungle boh.... the whole me falling back into drugs tho.. thats gotta stop.. i've made some bad choices in life. and well lately its been bad.. i've became somewhat of a mess.. i dunno.. it seems like majority of my pay goes to substances! ... im tryin to keep myself occupied on other stuff to keep me distracted from "kitty" as in "K" . this week hasnt been that bad tho! seens how two thursdays ago made me realize that its getting bad and i should lay low!
working still. my job is better then your job! haha thats forsure. i love it.. i havent not loved it yet! thats prrdy fuckin amazing. if i do say so myself!
this year has been going by fast.
what the fuck its already march! it seemed like just last nite was new years eve! which i do recall was a good fuckin new years eve fuckin eh! spent it with majority of the ones that matter the most in my life! fuckin good times i tell ya!
moving back to sauga in may.. cant wait for that.. me jer ryan and lind-z getting a place ! its gonna be boom!
tyler is coming to toronto soon .. cant wait. its been long time since that time we met and spent those days/nites together! im really excited.. him and jesse are gonna come to king of the jungle.. (rave)
thats gonna be good times.. hope tyler enjoys it!
Kati's dad died the other day!
omg its so unbelieveable. i dunno what to say. im lost for words.. the funeral is on sunday.. man i havent seen kati in so long. its gonna be kinda awkward.. ima go and give her my love and offer my helpingness and shit.. holy shit she must not be doing good! ah. *tear*
and its kinda shitty that under such not cool circumstances will the old crew be together ie .. amanda, allison, jeremy lind-z amanda and myself! most of us chill together and still talk.. but like not everyone one of us still chills with all of us and has any form of communication with each other.. its gonna be weird! and its sucks that it takes a death for us all to be together in one room! its gonna be rough!
theres so much more going on in my life.. but at the moment i dont know what to say..lol.. ah and its prolly a long ass entry!
you guys must be bored by now..lol
oh my life
if anyone still reads this?
hmmm ?
*wonders*
peas and carrots
so tash decided to do the LJ thing
its been some time since i have explained/put any rambles in here!
so here it goes...
my birthday is soon (april 3rd) im stressing alot about this day coming!
im dreading it actually
im sorta screwed once my 21st birthday comes.. (april 3rd) as well i will be off of my moms health insurance.. and diabetes is a bitch and shit.. its going to cost me lots of money to live! ah
well theres options i have for what i can do, to survive. some are just complicated for me to understand at the moment. hopefully i understand more of it soontime!
ah
i've been hit on by the same sex lately! its hot. but im straight. i very much so opened! but i know im straight. and like whoaness its a compliment and a half to have hot females wanting me! and not giving up on me! i dont even know what i want, actually.. i dont even want a boyfriend at the moment heh.. life is confusing sometimes. dont ya think?
been getting back into my old scene.. partying alot "partying hardcore" as in raves and drugs! meh.. i love to dance.. dancing was my past time back in the day! you dont even know. tash has the moves! haha thats forsure..and i fuckin love jungle boh.... the whole me falling back into drugs tho.. thats gotta stop.. i've made some bad choices in life. and well lately its been bad.. i've became somewhat of a mess.. i dunno.. it seems like majority of my pay goes to substances! ... im tryin to keep myself occupied on other stuff to keep me distracted from "kitty" as in "K" . this week hasnt been that bad tho! seens how two thursdays ago made me realize that its getting bad and i should lay low!
working still. my job is better then your job! haha thats forsure. i love it.. i havent not loved it yet! thats prrdy fuckin amazing. if i do say so myself!
this year has been going by fast.
what the fuck its already march! it seemed like just last nite was new years eve! which i do recall was a good fuckin new years eve fuckin eh! spent it with majority of the ones that matter the most in my life! fuckin good times i tell ya!
moving back to sauga in may.. cant wait for that.. me jer ryan and lind-z getting a place ! its gonna be boom!
tyler is coming to toronto soon .. cant wait. its been long time since that time we met and spent those days/nites together! im really excited.. him and jesse are gonna come to king of the jungle.. (rave)
thats gonna be good times.. hope tyler enjoys it!
Kati's dad died the other day!
omg its so unbelieveable. i dunno what to say. im lost for words.. the funeral is on sunday.. man i havent seen kati in so long. its gonna be kinda awkward.. ima go and give her my love and offer my helpingness and shit.. holy shit she must not be doing good! ah. *tear*
and its kinda shitty that under such not cool circumstances will the old crew be together ie .. amanda, allison, jeremy lind-z amanda and myself! most of us chill together and still talk.. but like not everyone one of us still chills with all of us and has any form of communication with each other.. its gonna be weird! and its sucks that it takes a death for us all to be together in one room! its gonna be rough!
theres so much more going on in my life.. but at the moment i dont know what to say..lol.. ah and its prolly a long ass entry!
you guys must be bored by now..lol
oh my life
if anyone still reads this?
hmmm ?
*wonders*
peas and carrots