Venting
OMFG, I'm so stupid, I really am. I've been thinking about Alex a lot lately, and how I was really stupid for cheating on him. Cheating on him got me no where. I lost a super sweet boyfriend for absolutely nothing. So I figured that I'd go to the concert tonight, and hang out with him. Well I definately fucked that up. He thinks I want to kill him. I don't at all. I want him to be back in my life. But I'm an idiot and fucked that up. I am never happy when I have something, but when its gone I realize that he did mean the world to me. I'm so stupid...that is all I wanted to talk to him about. That is all! I just wish he'd realize that, then he wouldn't have made a big deal about it. Yea I fucked up. That is all I do, hell that is what I am, a big fuck up!