if your happy, dont read this
well where do i start.
this weekend started out really good, but ended out to be the worst weekend of my life. life seems so stupid to me. all it is, is different shit that happens on different days.
so tomorrow my grandma goes into surgery, a surgery that can kill her, one that probably will. wow, i have never been this sad and scared at the same time. my grandma means so much to me, if i lose her, i dont know what i would do, i dont think i would ever wake up if she left me. she has this thing about her, like whenever i am around her, i feel like everything is gonna be ok. i am so scared.
yesterday i lost the only guy i have ever loved, and its all my fault. it felt good to have him by my side again, i hate myself.
i hate fake people. why cant you just be yourselves, you pathedic losers. dont say you know what your talking about, if you dont and dont say shit that you have idea what you are saying, cause you only sound stupid, which makes sense cause you are. school gets out soon, yay, i dont have to see any faggots anymore. another thing, all the people that are like, aww school is ending let me go cry, um no, you shouldnt be crying because i guarantee your close friends, the only ones you would be missing, your gonna talk to them, so shut the fuck up.
this entry isnt directed to any of you guys, its just a rant. i sorta needed to get it out, it gets old talking to God and your pets, i mean after all, thats all ive had to talk to lately. and thanks to all you guys who have been there for me and would let me talk to you about my problems and would just simply be there for me.