May 01, 2006 13:39
For the first time in ...weeks I feel content. Just for the moment. I don't care if it doesn't last. Maybe I know it won't last, but right now it's precious. And it's enough.
I think I needed this. There are so many things I have to worry about. The main thing: I need to get a new job desperately. One that pays better, and gives me more hours. I can't do this scraping by at the music store anymore. It's not working and I'll never go anywhere with it. I knew that from the start, but I just haven't had the courage and gumption to move on. I guess I've been looking for the reasons, the strength to move on ahead. I still haven't found it waiting, so I suppose I have to go on with what I have. Rather a scary thought, but that's how it is.
I suppose that's enough for now too.