Another Tarot
I have so much to write, but the time seems to slip by without my noticing. Sometimes I just want to grab hold of the world and make it stop spinning. Just for a minute. But I know if I did that, people all over would fall down - the earth would be still beneath their feet and they wouldn't know to stop.
This spread was laid on Sunday night, but it's Wednesday and I'm finally getting it down. This one is for mina19. She requested it, and I'm slow in responding, sorry. :/
These were the cards:
Significator - 6 of Swords
Crossing Card - 5 of Wands
Crowning Card - King of Swords
Base of the Matter - Knight of Cups
Past Influences - 7 of Pentacles
Forthcoming Influences - 3 of Swords
Where One Finds Oneself - 4 of Pentacles
Views of Others - 6 of Pentacles
Hopes and Fears - 5 of Pentacles
Final Outcome - 5 of Swords
First of all, I just want to say that this seems a very strange spread to me. 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 ? The five of all but one minor arcana. And I make sure to shuffle the deck very well. Perhaps I shuffled too well. Hmm..on with it.
This is what the cards tell me, or at least seem to indicate:
The 6 of swords, though not a "happy" card suggests harmony sprung from coming to terms with your limits and the tasks you are called upon to perform, though it is a moving away from turbulent, difficult feelings towards a calmer, more serene state despite the challenges ahead of you. This is your current situation. This is a time when your mind's capacity for understanding helps to ease a difficult and anxiety provoking time, and keen insight will help you along the way.
However, you're also struggling with material reality, and this is conflicting with your ability to move into a calmer state. Mundane matters may begin to go wrong, just little things that seem to build up inside you. You have to pay attention to these demands and limits of concrete reality. A compromise must be made while still seeking the insight to help you deal with your current issues.
Now, what seems to be on the surface and immediately apparent in your life, in other words, what's hanging around on your mind now. It seems this is also the time for you to meet within yourself the ambivalent gift of intellectual leadership and strategy. Ambivalent because with such a gift comes responsibility. It may be brought about by someone you meet at work or school who possesses these qualities of strong mental gifts, and they will act as a catalyst to your own development..
And what is behind this need for intellectual development? Well, this doesn't make sense to me, but the knight of cups suggests you're ready for the experience of falling in love. Perhaps you want to impress someone by proving your intellectual prowess to them.. However, the knight of cups may also just be a proposal to join a creative project, or stranger yet, a proposal of marriage.
That aside, it seems you've just passed out of a time when you had to make a difficult decision regarding work or school. This was very important to you at the time, but now it's not as pressing as it was and you should focus instead on what's ahead. I'm sorry to say, the next card heralds some kind of strife in the form of conflict or separation. Though this will be a painful situation, it's in some way necessary because you'll realize that the blindness and self-delusion with which you've clouded yourself can't go on.
The next card warns about an attitude of holding too tightly to things which are bound up with your sense of self-worth. You may soon find yourself faced with a situation that will bring about these feelings of poor self confidence, and a fear of letting go, but if you don't let go, you'll remain stagnant, creative energies won't flow and neither will material resources. They go hand in hand.
The card showing the views of others suggests that people see you coming into a situation where you'll have money or some other sustenance to share. You'll be called upon to offer generosity, or perhaps be the recipient of it.
Despite what people may see, you may feel quite the opposite. Under the card for hopes and fears I see that a fear of financial difficulty or loss, accompanied by the loss of faith in yourself.
The overall situation, the change or period you're going through right now seems to be the necessity of facing your own limits and realizing that life needs to be lived within the confines of your own capabilities. Perhaps you've taken on too much right now, or you're trying to lead the life you think you should, but it's not doing you any good. Perhaps you need to back off a little and learn what is possible for you to do before moving on.
Phew, that was a lot. I have no idea of any of it's accurate or not. Just remember, I'm not expert at this, I could be reading wrong.. and it's mostly done for fun. :)
Over the past few days I've been obsessed with this one song. Fiona Apple's "O Sailor". I love its minor sound, the discordant melody, and the way the beat is kind of choppy at times. It feels like watching a puppet's strings being jerked to make it dance. The sound is so 1920's or 30's. And somehow the words just seem to fit what I've been going through lately.
This spread was laid on Sunday night, but it's Wednesday and I'm finally getting it down. This one is for mina19. She requested it, and I'm slow in responding, sorry. :/
These were the cards:
Significator - 6 of Swords
Crossing Card - 5 of Wands
Crowning Card - King of Swords
Base of the Matter - Knight of Cups
Past Influences - 7 of Pentacles
Forthcoming Influences - 3 of Swords
Where One Finds Oneself - 4 of Pentacles
Views of Others - 6 of Pentacles
Hopes and Fears - 5 of Pentacles
Final Outcome - 5 of Swords
First of all, I just want to say that this seems a very strange spread to me. 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 ? The five of all but one minor arcana. And I make sure to shuffle the deck very well. Perhaps I shuffled too well. Hmm..on with it.
This is what the cards tell me, or at least seem to indicate:
The 6 of swords, though not a "happy" card suggests harmony sprung from coming to terms with your limits and the tasks you are called upon to perform, though it is a moving away from turbulent, difficult feelings towards a calmer, more serene state despite the challenges ahead of you. This is your current situation. This is a time when your mind's capacity for understanding helps to ease a difficult and anxiety provoking time, and keen insight will help you along the way.
However, you're also struggling with material reality, and this is conflicting with your ability to move into a calmer state. Mundane matters may begin to go wrong, just little things that seem to build up inside you. You have to pay attention to these demands and limits of concrete reality. A compromise must be made while still seeking the insight to help you deal with your current issues.
Now, what seems to be on the surface and immediately apparent in your life, in other words, what's hanging around on your mind now. It seems this is also the time for you to meet within yourself the ambivalent gift of intellectual leadership and strategy. Ambivalent because with such a gift comes responsibility. It may be brought about by someone you meet at work or school who possesses these qualities of strong mental gifts, and they will act as a catalyst to your own development..
And what is behind this need for intellectual development? Well, this doesn't make sense to me, but the knight of cups suggests you're ready for the experience of falling in love. Perhaps you want to impress someone by proving your intellectual prowess to them.. However, the knight of cups may also just be a proposal to join a creative project, or stranger yet, a proposal of marriage.
That aside, it seems you've just passed out of a time when you had to make a difficult decision regarding work or school. This was very important to you at the time, but now it's not as pressing as it was and you should focus instead on what's ahead. I'm sorry to say, the next card heralds some kind of strife in the form of conflict or separation. Though this will be a painful situation, it's in some way necessary because you'll realize that the blindness and self-delusion with which you've clouded yourself can't go on.
The next card warns about an attitude of holding too tightly to things which are bound up with your sense of self-worth. You may soon find yourself faced with a situation that will bring about these feelings of poor self confidence, and a fear of letting go, but if you don't let go, you'll remain stagnant, creative energies won't flow and neither will material resources. They go hand in hand.
The card showing the views of others suggests that people see you coming into a situation where you'll have money or some other sustenance to share. You'll be called upon to offer generosity, or perhaps be the recipient of it.
Despite what people may see, you may feel quite the opposite. Under the card for hopes and fears I see that a fear of financial difficulty or loss, accompanied by the loss of faith in yourself.
The overall situation, the change or period you're going through right now seems to be the necessity of facing your own limits and realizing that life needs to be lived within the confines of your own capabilities. Perhaps you've taken on too much right now, or you're trying to lead the life you think you should, but it's not doing you any good. Perhaps you need to back off a little and learn what is possible for you to do before moving on.
Phew, that was a lot. I have no idea of any of it's accurate or not. Just remember, I'm not expert at this, I could be reading wrong.. and it's mostly done for fun. :)
Over the past few days I've been obsessed with this one song. Fiona Apple's "O Sailor". I love its minor sound, the discordant melody, and the way the beat is kind of choppy at times. It feels like watching a puppet's strings being jerked to make it dance. The sound is so 1920's or 30's. And somehow the words just seem to fit what I've been going through lately.