Holy Update!!!!
Hey everyone lol!!! Ok so my last blog written was in March of 2006. lol It's freaking November 6, 2007. Yea...def time for an update. I re-read my last blog and it was just when Nikki left for boot camp and I was annoyed because everyone had heard from her excpet me and i missed her phone call. Well....a lot has changed since then. First off, I'm no longer with Nikki. To make a really long story short...someone "caught her eye" in bootcamp and she ended up breaking up with me over a letter and started dating that other girl. For the majority of last year we went back and forth trying to see if we could get back to the way things were but it didn't work. Plus I ended up hurting someone I didn't want to hurt over and over again. These days I have a new gf. She's goofy but hey...at least she makes me laugh. We've been through our share of problems and when I think back on it, i've put her through so much bullshit. I mean...I chose Nikki over this girl time and time again yet she still managed to stick around. I can only imagine what it feels like to loose the person you love over and over because they love someone else. Ouch. Needless to say though all is well so far and as for Nikki and I.....I'd like to think that we're trying to be civil. Honestly it was hard to picture her as a friend because that's not how we started. She was someone that I liked and we just started dating. There was no time in there where we were actually "friends." She's not someone that I wanted out of my life. She means/meant too much for me to just be like "fuck you, you're out of my life." So I guess we're just trying to get along. But besides that things with Jess are good. Every couple has their issues and thankfully we've been working through ours. My friends are still around but have technically gone in seperate ways. In March of this year we lost Jasmin. R.I.P. That was hard....it's been the hardest thing I've had to go through. She was one of the girls and now....things aren't the same. I think that's when we all just did our own things and lost sight of "the girls." Dont get me wrong....we're still all good friends and we love eachother very much but once someone dies.....it changes things completely. I miss Jasmin. I wish I could see her one last time...I wish we can have that one last chance to sing the temptations...I wish I could hug her tightly with the rest of ther girls and tell her how much I love her and how much she meant to me. Unfortunetly life doesnt work out that way and now I have to go to her grave to say all those things. We also just lost Jamie to the war in Iraq. She's a naval pilot and she's currently helping the ground troops over there. She'll be there for 7 months....probably more because they like to change times apparently. Either way though we still wont be able to see her because she was stationed in Hawaii right before she was deployed. Kristin quit Carinos and is getting ready for marriage. We hardley see her anymore. July was the last time I saw her. I miss her dorky ass so much but I cant wait for her to get married. Nicole...well she's fine at the moment...still my best friend and still has male problems. Things are looking up for her though cuz apparently she might have a new beau. We'll see how this one plays out. Marybeth is actually in a relationship and those of you who know her like I do know that that's a shocker because she usually doesn't keep guys around for relationships....just sex lol. My family is doing well. I finally went back to El Paso this summer. That was an amazing trip. lol I spent everyday with Lili....she's really the only friend I saw. School.....egh.....let's just say that now I'm starting to regret what I pulled in the past. Work.....same bullshit just different people. I've made a lot more close friends surprsingly. Last time I worked I was pissed the whole time so I can only imagine how I'll be feeling today. There are plenty of other things I need to update on but those were the most important. Life is decent. I still have my family to support me, I still have my friends to be behind me on whatever decision I make and I have my Jess who loves me no matter how many times I screw up. For all that....I am thankful.